So I kinda got crushed by some guy that I've had a crush on for over a year and I was talking to him and hanging out with him for over a month. I told him that I was looking for a relationship in the beginning and he acknowledged that, but he cut things off in the end saying he wasn't sure what I thought we'd become. I thought we had bonding moments, but it kinda turns out that he was just trying to...ya know. I'm sad about it, my ocd is acting up a lil bit. I feel like he kinda played me, but felt bad about it in the end. I've been telling my friends that he played me and my ocd is telling me "what if he didn't tho and you're saying this?" It like goes against my morals and I feel like a bitch about it. Idk I'm just upset because it felt like he genuinely cared, but then he wouldn't be 100% honest with me until the end. I hate that I don't hate him, he does seem like a good guy at heart.