I can’t do this anymore. This is too traumatizing to go through. I feel extremely depressed and don’t know what to do

Are you getting therapy? If not, that is what you can do to help yourself

I feel like it won’t work :/ and would ERP help depression as well?

@random_person Ocd is causing your depression, once you beat your ocd and get it under control, you will feel better and depression will go away

Contact your primary care or a psychiatrist about starting an SSRI. They'll probably start you on the lowest dose (5mg) of lexapro or something and check in with ya in a month to see how its doing. Meds will help kick start your recovery and motivate you to do ERP. If things are becoming too hard for you, PLEASE text HOME to 741741 (its a text crisis line). We all want you here with us! We all understand what you are going through, trust me!

You need to get therapy and meds.

It's exhausting and overwhelming. Remember you're dealing with OCD and it's powerful. Also remember that it's not real. Give yourself time to rest by reading or watching a favorite show or talking to someone who is supportive. There are so many people struggling like you are. You're not alone and we understand. Take it one day at a time or one hour at a time; whatever you can handle. And keep in touch this way. You'll get lots of awesome support and that's something we all need.