Amagicmarie
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- 4y
katsokatso
- Date posted
- 4y
I’ve had ocd all my life and at one point I convinced myself that I was schizophrenic, turned out it was just my ocd making me think that. It can be a really scary feeling but it is important to keep reminding yourself that ocd is a doubting condition that makes you question everything, even doubting you have the condition. If you’re feeling very anxious rn and need to relax I recommend going on a walk. Or even going outside in the sun barefoot. Being outside, especially barefoot, is very grounding. I also recommend journaling. It helps to get all your thoughts down on paper to see that they are not as big and scary as you originally thought. Hope this helps a little!❤️
AmagicmarieAmagicmarie
- Date posted
- 4y
Is it normal to feel detached from reality with OCD? And also Is it normal for OCD to get worse before it gets better?
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 4y
@Amagicmarie I have this same theme. I had horrible anxiety thinking about if my life was real and thought I had schizophrenia. But I went to NOCD therapist and started ERP and I learned a lot about EOCD. It can feel worse before it gets better, but really every exposure is pushing you in the right direction if you try to stop ruminating and doing other compulsions. Best of luck
AmagicmarieAmagicmarie
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- 4y
@Anonymous I feel like everytime I try to keep mind busy, it just ends up building inside of me until I can't take it anymore and I go into a full blown panic attack. Idk how people on here can just keep their mind busy. My mind is thinking "the world isn't real" no matter what I'm doing
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 4y
@Amagicmarie I totally feel that too. It’s not about keeping you’re mind busy though. It’s about accepted the intrusive thoughts and uncertainty
AmagicmarieAmagicmarie
- Date posted
- 4y
@Anonymous Any tips for that? Because right now I'm bawling my eyes out and i just wanna give up
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 4y
@Amagicmarie The best thing that happened to me was realizing that my compulsion is to try to disprove the fact that the world might not be. Like I would always try to fight the thought off with evidence. You have to try to not do anything like that. Additionally as far as the schizophrenia fears, what I realized is that there’s a real difference between anxiety and have delusions. You shouldn’t try to reassure yourself too much, but it’s likely if your aware of this as being an issue then you probably don’t have psychosis of any kind.
AmagicmarieAmagicmarie
- Date posted
- 4y
@Anonymous Thank you! I'm just tired of being in a 24/7 panic attack. I miss my old life. And I want it back so bad.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 4y
@Amagicmarie This is a podcast that really helped me understand OCD: https://open.spotify.com/episode/7an640SEH9SxrA8sdnc5ZK?si=skfwymmaRxatfI_nAiiVFw&dl_branch=1
AmagicmarieAmagicmarie
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- 4y
@Anonymous I listen to that podcast too! I listened to the one on existential ocd but it wasn't too helpful. Do you have any in particular that you reccomend?
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 4y
@Amagicmarie Yeah the existential one wasn’t amazing. The one I sent you a link to I highly recommend. Also there’s a few more where he interviews the same guy which also are very good. Then there’s another one I think called “fear of going crazy” that was helpful to me
katsokatso
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- 4y
It is normal, I’m feeling really detached from reality today. And my ocd has gotten significantly worse this past year, but with therapy and self care I feel myself getting better every week. Reminding yourself that the negative thoughts and feelings you have are because of ocd is very helpful when you are having lows like this. Hang in there! Everything is going to be okay!
AmagicmarieAmagicmarie
- Date posted
- 4y
Thank you. It just feels like when I'm making progress, I feel better for a little bit then I get way way worse and IDK why. Existential OCD and derealization don't mix well. My brain convinces me that I'm crazy
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