The strength gain relies on embracing all of the bad things but not all at once. Take small steps until you get used to the anxiety, gaining tolerance, the anxiety spikes down on its own by a process called habituation. Be your own light and lift all this darkness blinding your vision upon the world and yourself!
Do not let ocd thoughts and compulsion define you!
I know what you mean. But I find that after a while of obsessing about a certain anxiety that there will also be times where I feel like saying, “I’m not giving in! This is just some silly ocd problem and it shouldn’t affect me one bit!” There will be times of strength and weakness, but you must make the most of your strength!
You will get bored of them and them of you, hehe. And never get bothered again. Anxiety is just a long bridge on which wind tries to blow you off in a river of fear, rumination. You can pass it but it won't be that easy, stay safe and stay motivated, you can do it!