anonymousN
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- 4y
kaylangel4kaylangel4
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- 4y
Yes ofc I’ve been dealing with this too
anonymousNanonymousN
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- 4y
Girl it feels so real and my mind is constantly runinating . It keeps saying what does someone go through for them to think they’re the opposite gender and how I am I so comfortable being a girl and how are there some girls that want to be boys and how are men able to be comfortable being men ? And what does gender identity even mean ? How can you think like the opposite sex ? I’m trying to ignore it but it won’t shut up and on top of that I keep playing scenarios of what life would be like if I was a guy and I feel like I don’t love my bf anymore and I can’t tell who I am anymore or if this is real . I can’t stop crying life was so simple and fun before all of this . I have no I dead what to do. I just want to give up
anonymousNanonymousN
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- 4y
I hope it not triggering you if I am just lmk
kaylangel4kaylangel4
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- 4y
@anonymousN Omg I totally understand your situation. I’ve imagined myself dressing up more “masculine” and dating the other girls to see if I would like it. It gives me so much anxiety because I’ve never wanted to change my gender but I keep thinking “what if I want to”
anonymousNanonymousN
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- 4y
@kaylangel4 Me too and I never liked it I always loved myself the way I was and everyone else does too but the more the images come in the head the confused I get and the more I feel like it feels real and like I might actually have it in me to do something like that .
kaylangel4kaylangel4
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- 4y
@anonymousN Yess I don’t know how to deal with this I might try meditation and watching YouTube videos on HOCD.
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