anonymousN
- Date posted
- 4y
girlanongirlanon
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
Ugh I agree with you. I don't think I'll ever want to be a girl or feel like a girl again. That's been robbed from me. It feels like I never was a girl at all. I feel like I have to just accept it. I've grown to hate the idea of my femininity, it repulses me.
anonymousNanonymousN
- Date posted
- 4y
I’m sorry , I hope we both get to get our lives back . This is so debilitating it’s driving me insane .
CesarCesar
- Date posted
- 4y
First thing to talk about is that God doesn't hate you, He loves you more than you could ever imagine. Words can't describe how much God loves you. I know what you might be thinking after that sentence. And no God is not punishing you or sending this to you, He's allowing this to happen but it doesn't mean He wants you to suffer. Ocd is the doubting disease, it will attack your values and have you think you're against them. Therapy is necessary to manage and beat ocd, it can be done with hard work there's people who can say they've beaten ocd, but beating it doesn't mean you won't have intrusive thoughts or feelings, regular people have them too, the difference is they don't overthink them, they move on. Seek therapy, ocd can't be beaten by logic or thinking it off, it feeds from overthinking and fear, you're not alone. Perhaps stay away from TV and everything that talks about your triggers. You don't have to stop being a woman, you can rediscover what it means to be a woman and women are strong, I'm sure you will recover, ocd can't beat you, you're a beloved child of God and He will never abandon you. Seek Him. God bless you
anonymousNanonymousN
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- 4y
Thank you 💗
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- 4y
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anonymousNanonymousN
- Date posted
- 4y
Thank you I’m trying so hard I really am but it feels like I can’t do it . It feels to real to be ocd this time . I feel like I can’t fight it anymore . The possibility scares me and everytime I’m somewhat sure that I’m fine the way I am I always question it . I constantly feel like I’m faking my symptoms and the images of me as a boy or a man are starting to become less and less disturbing like I’m getting used to them or like I’m okay with it and everytime I tell myself I wouldn’t be happy as a boy or that’s not who I am it alsways tells me Iwould be happy as a guy or that’s what I want or my identity changed or why is being a man so uncomfortable for you ? How do you know you hate it ? What makes you hate it and how do other people do it and I can’t shake it and I can’t stop thinking about caitlyn Jenner and it feels like I just need to accept this lifestyle now and accept that it is real . It makes me feel like I don’t like my woman body parts anymore . This is pure torture . I’m all out of options …
anonymousNanonymousN
- Date posted
- 4y
@BlueMountain Thank you , you’re very helpful and I appreciate your kindness
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- Date posted
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