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Kinda sounds like the back door spike
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But doesn’t this happen when you’re in recovery? I’m not in recovery
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@random_person Not necessarily. This happens after a prolonged time of anxiety
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@Anonymous6 To my best knowledge
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@Anonymous6 Do you know how long it lasts?
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@random_person I do not. Research the back door spike :)
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I feel like the exact same thing. I dont feel anxious and thinking my ocd is gone.
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Wait isnt that a good thing
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Maybe, but it feels like I’ve accepted I’m the real thing and feel really depressed and not like myself
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@random_person Look up the video “Depression as a compulsion with Shala Nicely” - it talks about exactly this
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i’m the same actually it happened to me last night where i was contemplating something and was genuinely thinking that i have ‘accepted it’ (i was super sleepy) even though i was mentally opposing it i didn’t feel the anxiety that i usually feel (that happens with my intrusive thoughts but i’m always avidly going against them but in this instance i was genuinely sitting a contemplating and thinking that i had accepted that i was this awful thing and i wasn’t getting anxiety from it) but then i woke up the next morning and felt riddled with a lot of anxiety bc of it and i wasn’t understanding why i wasn’t getting anxiety bc at the current moment i was getting anxiety and stress from it so i’m what u mean!
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**i know what u mean
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Stop feeling certain and just go with it. No one knows your outcome don’t pay attention to this back door spike thing. Enjoy your freedom and just stay present!
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No one knows for “certain” if ocd will or will never go away. It’s best to not even give these questions the time of day.
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So I’ve noticed that my OCD has calmed down, I’m getting less intrusive thoughts but I feel more uncertain than ever. Is this normal for recovery?
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So I've been working to address my OCD for about a month now. So far, I haven't been working on it with a therapist and have instead been trying to create my own exposure exercises. The primary obsession I'm working on is the fear that I'm somehow flawed or invalid on a fundamental level. The best way I can describe it it is that its similar to the feeling you get when you have germ OCD and you feel contaminated, except my whole existence and being feels contaminated, so to speak. I've identified a list of triggers, and a list of compulsions (pretty much all mental) that I've noticed myself performing. I started out by doing imaginal exposures and scripts where I'd write out triggering fictional scenarios and read them over and over, combined with mindfulness techniques to focus on my breath and bring myself back to the present when I noticed myself performing compulsions mentally. At first it worked to some extent, but eventually I started to feel like the stories I was writing about this obsession weren't triggering any anxiety anymore or a very low level. So I stopped reading them and focused solely on improving my ability to stay present and identifying compulsions as I perform them, and disengaging. Now, I'm at the point where it seems like my general anxiety levels throughout the day are lower, and the triggers I've identified are producing noticeably less anxiety. But that makes me wonder if somehow I'm just secretly doing mental compulsions without knowing it? Is only a month of rather disorganized and unstructured ERP enough to produce this much improvement? To avoid giving me re-assurance, I'd appreciate if you guys don't directly answer those questions, maybe just provide some possibilities or your own experiences so I can get a better idea of where I'm at. Any info would be appreciated. Thanks!
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Hi everyone! For those of you who have overcome OCD, did you find the initial feelings, emotions, and thoughts kind of become less and less consuming as it got better? In the beginning, I feel like I was crying, sick to my stomach, had a nervous/scared “blah” feeling, etc.. now, Im not crying like that, i still get a blah nervous belly feeling which kinda scares me into thinking its because the thoughts are true and maybe I was just in denial? Idk.. help lol
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