Sooo, finally legal in my country and decided to experiment with alcohol. After a while I realised I liked the tastes of certain ones and also realised it was expensive and it takes me a while to even get remotely tipsy. Also. I do follow a religion that prohibits alcohol. So I made the decision to stop. But I keep having a slight itch to drink. It’s not even for the alcohol part, because as we’ve established i don’t get drunk easily. I just like the taste of wine. So today I went to the store and brought a sparkling fruit juice. Thinking it’d taste similar . And it has no alcohol in it. I even checked the label and even googled it several times . My younger brother asked for a a bit and I said sure. Now I’m spiralling, because the taste is so similar to wine. And I realised the sparkling drink was made specifically to be an alcohol alternative. what if the company gets exposed for actually being alcoholic. What if I introduced my brother to a life style of alcoholism. What if me buying this is a sign I’ll try alcohol again. What if I become addicted to escape low moments. What if I can’t stop. I even follow accounts now about recovering from alcohol to put me off ever trying it again.

Username: MM

Date posted: 3y ago

Nvm I calmed down

Username: huntyhunty

Date posted: 3y ago

Lmaoooo I’m sorry but lmaoooo this is WHOLESOME ♥️ I’m so sorry I hope this doesn’t offend ??? But this is my thought process too! The what ifs are so scary! I find myself in a web of what ifs! Then you calm down😂 oh man , glad you’re ok bud

Username: huntyhunty

Date posted: 3y ago

@🐚 . IM SORRY I DONT WANT TO GET CANCELLED ON THIS APP PLEASE DISREGARD MY COMMENT ? I know this is a sensitive community , but sometimes we can have a laugh ? No I’m sorry I feel bad ugh

Username: CheetahvionicCheetahvionic

Date posted: 3y ago

@🐚 . No it's fine. Sometimes it brings us laughter when we share the crazy thought processes that come with OCD

Username: MM

Date posted: 3y ago

@🐚 . NO THIS IS HILLARIOUS IT MADE ME LAUGH SO MUCH. And made me calming down so much quicker. Don’t worry!! I can’t stop smiling it’s fine

Username: LavanderLavander

Date posted: 3y ago

Hey, it's alright. You drank it, it's on the past. And about your religion prohibiting alcohol, I'm protestant and I prefer to look at it in a different light. There are many christians who do drink alcohol, even in the protestant branch itself. My current belief is that it's a personal choice, because if you're not careful it can get out of control and get in the way of your faith and your life overall. Having said this, I think it's up to the person to determine if they have this kind of self control, which is risky, because once you get the addiction, it's so hard to get back to how things were before. Because I don't trust myself enough, and also because I'm prone to obsessive thinking, I chose to not drink alcohol. It's much better to look at it as a choice, rather than an imposition. And don't get to caught up on future worries. Stay in the present. These "what if" thoughts are torturous because there's no answer to them, and we blow them out of proportion to the point of becoming farfetched. Just do your best to move on. Finally, I'll try to keep track of your response (f you do respond), but if I don't get back to you again it's because my notifications aren't working :(

Username: LavanderLavander

Date posted: 3y ago

Just saw that you calmed down :) but I think the advice still stands. Best wishes!!

Username: MM

Date posted: 3y ago

Thank you so much for this! I do trust myself but I don’t really trust how addictive it is. And also the fact that even now I have a slight itch for it as a beginner, imagine if I continue. And I don’t want any future problems. So I’d rather avoid it. Also no matter what I always come back down to reality and my dilemmas will not go away until I fix them. So I don’t want it becoming something I use to escape my issues. The only issue is that, and I know it’s so silly and I’d never usually waste my time was such trivial worries. But I’m afraid of how I’d look if I don’t drink at functions. I’ve never been one to care. I’m working on that. Because even I’m aware it’s so stupid

Username: MM

Date posted: 3y ago

Also thank you for the reminder of not to worry about future worries and only focus on the now/ where I’m making the decision not to drink. Soemtimes as ocd sufferers we lose sight of this logic

Username: LavanderLavander

Date posted: 3y ago

@M Yes, I think the same on basically everything you said. If I sulk a little when I feel down, adding alcohol on top of that wouldn't make anything better. And this worry of drinking at functions, it's not stupid at all! Sometimes I think about what I'll do once I'm at college or a professional gathering, but I think this isn't as pressing as we imagine it. Nowadays it's pretty normal for people of all ages to not drink for all sorts of reasons, be it psychological, religious or philosophical. So unless the people you're around are immature or douches, they won't judge you for staying sober or be pushy about it. If they're indeed judgemental, then that's their problem, not yours. And I'm glad I could help you a little! Ocd is crazy, it doesn't look for answers at all, it's all anxiety and doubt.

Username: MM

Date posted: 3y ago

@Lavander Thank you for this! And you’re absolutely right. If you’re in the right company they wouldn’t judge you . The one thing about my experimenting that helped is now I realise how much I like sparkling drinks. That’s the only thing I’ve developed an addiction for coming out of this 🤣. But my ocd would say otherwise.

Username: NOCD Advocate Jess, CPSSNOCD Advocat...

User type: NOCD Alumni

Date posted: 3y ago

Listen to all those what ifs that OCD has put into your mind. Use this as an exposure. Well what if it really has alcohol in it ocd? I'm ok with that because I choose to drink it, I enjoyed it and I'm going to drink it in the future if I want too. And then sit with that anxiety. If you allow the OCD to make you afraid of all these thoughts it's sending you, that's what the ocd wants and needs to stick around. Lean into that fear OCD is trying to get you with. It's hard but you are stronger!

Username: MM

Date posted: 3y ago

Thank you so much ! I’m definetely gonna practice exposures for this theme it was so sudden that it just caught me off guard

Username: T.

Date posted: 5y ago

I know this is probably just my ocd but i always worry that because I like drinking I am or will turn into an alcoholic. Another thing is I prefer drinking at home because I don't want to worry about finding a way home when drunk, and I don't mind drinking alone either. I literally always worry about this and now I feel guilty when I drink at all

Username: hannie

Date posted: 5y ago

Does anyone have advice for intrusive thoughts while tipsy? I haven experience this before and then a random thought hit me! Had this happen. The buzz had warn off but it still freaked me out cause I don’t know it was OCD or an actual thought. I got anxiety really bad after.

Username: VicVinegar

Date posted: 3y ago

Alcohol and OCD: A cruel mistress! Hi all. I wanted to share my thoughts and potentially start a discussion about the role of alcohol in OCD. Certainly in my case I think it is a fundamental contributor to my suffering, and I'm not surprised about the statistics related to how many OCD sufferers also suffer from problematic drinking. My current obsessive themes are Real Event/guilt OCD and are often related to situations and events where I was incredibly drunk with fuzzy and missing memories, or my drunkenness contributed to certain actions that I now obsessively regret. Whilst this was in the past, alcohol is still contributing to my suffering, and I'm starting to wonder whether I would be much happier without it. I find that after sometimes months of feeling fine, most if not all of my major relapses have occurred directly after a night of heavy drinking, and that spark has sent me spiralling for days and sometimes weeks. I then became obsessed about limiting my drinking in certain situations, I had a fear that if I was drunk I would end up committing some horrible crime or cheating on my partner. Now though I'm finding that I'm drinking moderate amounts of alcohol on a very regular basis, just to take my mind off my obsessions, which is very unhealthy. When I have a drink, even just one, it feels like my thoughts just almost vanish in importance, it's like a beautiful break from all the suffering. This feeling scares me a little and I now worry that I might be verging on some form of dependency on alcohol. I'm not looking for any reassurance here, just wanted to share my experience and chat with others who might also be struggling in this way.

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