I just had an intrusive thought about touching my dogs private area. For some reason I though doing it would make the anxiety go away. I poked it and now I feel like I raped her or something I feel so awful.

You did not rape her! I get intrusive thoughts about my pets & I am super passionate about them all!! OCD just targets what you love most.

You did not rape her! I've had intrusive thoughts that made me question shit and gave me extremely high anxiety, and I had to do strange stuff that made me feel like the anxiety would go away by doing it, but it didn't and just got worse! You did something because you love your dog very much, and you wanted to relieve the anxiety that the intrusive thought gave you. You DID NOT rape her. You weren't sexually attracted to your dog, and you didn't do to satisfy a sexual thought, so absolutely don't feel like you did! OCD fucking sucks and attacks everything that you love, and it tries to put intrusive thoughts in your head that makes you think by doing your OCD, that the anxiety goes away, but it doesn't, it just makes it worse. If you get a thought next time, try labeling it as an intrusive thought and attempt to move on from it and do something else! You could also try prolonging doing any rituals that come with intrusive thoughts to kind of gradually build up control over them. I wish you the best in your journey against OCD, and I hope that you'll be able to gain control over your intrusive thoughts!

Rhys34.. I did the exact same thing. It’s actually a compulsion because the reason we do it was to rid the anxiety , urge, discomfort or to figure it out, etc. Let me tell you though.. it does not work! You might even get short term relief of the anxiety or urge but not long after comes the anxiety, guilt, ruminating, etc. Basically gives your OCD a new target. Resist the urge to perform compulsions of any form or you’ll remain stuck in your OCD. You did not harm your dog but doing this compulsions will harm you. Please do not listen to your OCD. You can do this.