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Hey 👋🏼 I have gross thoughts about making my pets act on me s*xually 😔 its really degrading , & physically I KNOW I do not want it . But why mentally it doesn’t feel good when I realize this ? Like when I get the “oh great , I’m not gross after all because I don’t want it” I understand thats myself giving myself reassurance & apparently that can worsen OCD symptoms , is that why I don’t feel good mentally ? Like I don’t understand . Or is that OCD messing with my feelings ….. I’m sorry. Can you please help , I’ll stop asking for reassurance . Like for some reason I don’t feel as great as I’d like to for NOT acting on intrusive thoughts
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@BlueMountain Is it weird if I ask you for your number ? I’m 22 , I can really use some help ..
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@BlueMountain Its ok I completely understand
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I like to think of it as the OCD getting nervous because you’re doing well, so it lashes out in fear of losing its hold over you. OCD is seriously such a little jerk!
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Has it happened to you ? Where you feel like yourself & then it just makes you feel so low again or confused :/
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@🐚 . Yes! Many times! It helps sometimes to keep a division between yourself and your OCD. That way you can both fight your OCD tendencies, at least once you recognize them taking hold, and more importantly, you can try to forgive yourself and press reset as many times as you need. It’s not easy to do, but it does help me break free at least sometimes. You are not alone! Strength and comfort your way! 💪🏼💜
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Yep same
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I dont know what my normal is supposed to look like or how I should be feeeling lol.
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How u felt before ocd took over
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@ocdsuxxx I dont trust that anymore bc Im convinced that I was always gay and didnt notice... Im a mess
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@Imaan7 That’s just your ocd lying to you since the thoughts are , I am assuming always on ur mind it seems that way! Just remember you will know what ur heart truly feels in the presence of someone u like don’t worry
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@ocdsuxxx I actually dont know, its too confusing, Im too confused
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Anyone else just have days where they feel more calm and don’t have as many intrusive thoughts? But then later at night time it just comes back so you only had relief even for a little bit 😞😞 I feel like even when I’m not having my OCD send me intrusive thoughts, I always have a feeling in my stomach that something is wrong/off or a sense of doom. I always just feel on edge and anxious as if my mind is always preparing itself for the next horrifying intrusive thought to torment me with ugh 🫠
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That's what OCD feels like. Especially the constant questioning and doubt and the more you do it, the more you doubt yourself and it ends up leaving you open for other 'attacks'. I left the house today with my mom to run errands and things were fine, like my intrusive thoughts weren't bothering me that much in the beginning though they're constant in the background. Then when we stopped to get a drink from this store before leaving, I got more anxious because there were lots of kids around (it's afternoon here and i guess school was coming out). Kids were walking around in school uniform and I just told myself to keep looking away because i knew that my intrusive thoughts were going to flare up. Obviously that just made it worse and I just wanted to run away and crawl into a hole or something. Then a few minutes passed and then my brain said what if you were leering at the kids or looking at them inappropriately. And then my brain kept telling me that I wanted to or must have filmed one of them even though it's not something I want to do and know deep down that I didn't do it and don't want to. Ever. I just felt so disgusted with myself, I had to stop myself from crying on the way home. I hate this disease and I hate that its made its home in my head.
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I dont know what to do anymore. I think Ive had the 'pure O' version of OCD for more than ten years. I feel like so much of my life has been wasted from this disease. For the longest time I just tried to ignore the intrusive thoughts, and push them off as anxiety, and basically dissociated for years of my life. Feels like Ive just been on autopilot and a shell of myself for nearly 15 years. Its actually hard to even imagine of all the experiences, emotions, connections with others, and personal growth that Ive missed out on- if I do, I think it would be too much to handle. I think Ive even forgot and dont even know at this point what it is to live a normal life and experience positive emotions. Now that I sought treatment for it specifically, it feels like it's gotten worse. Like by acknowledging that part of myself, suddenly added focus just makes it more real and in the forefront now. I wonder if I am actually going insane. Will not go into details for reassurance but the thoughts just rip my soul out. Its so difficult as well because I will get random 'clarity moments' throughout the day where I feel like Ive solved something, then get completely derailed by another OCD thought stream and forget everything. It feels like Im just on a merry-go-round of hell, not going anywhere thinking I am at times.
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