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- 6y
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- 6y
yup totally...I am 95% sure what I'm thinking didn't happen but theres always doubt isn't there....then I ask my work colleague for reassurance as he was with me and of course even though he says nothing happened, you still doubt what hes telling you lol...vicious circle
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- 6y
Your memory is just as good as his, you’re just questioning yours because of OCD. Overtime you’ll be 100%. (Not OCD 100% there’s no such thing as Satisfying OCD) Try your best to not ask for reassurance because the compulsion keeps the ocd alive.
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- 6y
yeah it's made me very low....I can still remember stupid things about the night in question and can also remember texting my gf so I'm sure I would remember something as terrible as cheating
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- 6y
mine is fear of having cheated on partner after drinking
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- 6y
Yes. I wish I didn’t. I just keep going over a memory over and over to make sure what I imagined didn’t happen in real life. It is extremely scary. I know the imagination isn’t real but I just want to know FOR CERTAIN. But it doesn’t matter, no matter how many times I go over it, I’ll never know FOR CERTAIN. Overtime, I trust my heart and my soul and know what is true, but the imagination “feels” real. As time passes and I continue to fight that compulsion (to ruminate over the memory) my feelings mirror my thoughts and I don’t feel doubt anymore. Does that make sense?
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- 4y
Yes! Literally dealing w the same thing
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- 6y
That’s the same doubt as with all kind of OCD, if you try to just accept that uncertainty, you’ll be able to think more clear after I while. You’ll get over it, but you have to actively stop pondering it then :)
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- 6y
Of course, nothing to put energy on, you’ll never get anywhere that will make you satisfied :) But for curiosity, what’s your about? Look at this, quite funny https://youtu.be/prN6_Lt1VZg :)
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- 6y
its all because alcohol was involved and an overnight stay with work colleagues, that has created the doubt
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- 6y
thanks =)
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- 6y
I had the same thing happen to me when I was in college. I went over to the guys dorm room drunk as hell and my bf gaslighted me about it. I asked the guy for reassurance and he said nothing happened but what if he lied? Doesn’t matter. I wasn’t black out drunk and I know it didn’t happen in my heart but I kept going over it to make surrrrre. Eventually, I found out he was cheating on me so I left him anyway. I am now 100% sure. I’ve had a couple of false memory episodes that nearly killed me, but I’m doing ok. I know myself and the routine. It will get better.
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- Date posted
- 24w
Does anyone else’s false memory intrusive thoughts of what could have happened feel very, very real?
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- 24w
So. I was in a traumatic relationship. for a long time. it was filled with gaslighting, manipulation, abuse, cheating ect. I would OBSESS over finding out where they were, what they were doing, who they were talking too. but I couldn’t leave. I tried so hard but I never could. they would call me names, physically hurt me, throw things, break things. because I would question them all the time. but I just couldn’t leave. no matter what I knew. they would manipulate me. I fell for their childhood trauma. it’s like I lost all logic. but I also feel like I have a pretty good memory with memories. not all the way, but remembering a lot of the traumatic things. especially now that I’m no longer with them. I keep remembering things that’s happened. even from my childhood. one time way before I even started dating this person, I had an intrusive thought about a friend of mine. that was with me. and I freaked out. I thought I had acted on the intrusive thought the next day. I asked my friend for confirmation but they said nothing happened. but the memories about it feel SO REAL. so VIVID. but they swore that nothing happened and they had no idea what I was talking about. I’ve struggled with intrusive thoughts for my whole life. so fast forward to now, that ‘false memory’ from my friend randomly popped up and I started obsessing about it, and my childhood ‘memories’ that have popped up. and then I was reading an article of someone doing something horrible, and then it sounded ‘familiar’ and so then I’ve created this whole memory of me doing something similar to the article involving my partner doing it also. the memory keeps adding new things and conversations around it. when it involves an actual real memory. but it’s like it’s been twisted from what I remembered before. I also suffer from bad anxiety. I’ve stalked pictures. my search history to figure out what I was doing that say when the real event happened. and I’ve found some things but I can’t look through my texts because I got a new phone. it has been hounding me for months. MONTHS. trying to figure out if this new ‘memory’ is real or not. if it’s been fabricated by an intrusive thought from reading the article and thinking ‘what if’ or if it actually happened and because I’m no longer in this relationship it’s a ‘repressed memory’ but the thing is I have horrible horrible anxiety and I don’t think I could have gone this long knowingly that that happened without remembering it until now. because I remember a lot of the horrible things that they did. this ‘memory’ is fuzzy, but it brings me horrible anxiety when I think of it, like I feel like it happened. but I also feel like it didn’t happen. because I know I would never do anything like that. but WHAT IF I DID, because I was manipulated. idk. is this a false memory. I really need help. because it’s been debilitating. that relationship was really traumatic. and I got manipulated into a lot of things. but I wouldn’t have just went forward knowing that that happened??? there’s no way I could have just forgotten it. because before when I would think about that night it was different, until now. but what if I just made myself forget what truly happened?? I’m a pretty self aware individual, but somehow that relationship really REALLY put me into a trance somehow where I allowed things that I have no idea how I would even allow because before I met that person I would have never allowed someone to cheat on my constantly or talk to me the way they did. or allow abuse. like I don’t understand it.
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- 23w
When false memories have popped up for you guys, did they feel real straight away like pop up like a memory but you’re still doubting whether they’re real?
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