Sazaroll
- Date posted
- 6y
SazarollSazaroll
- Date posted
- 6y
yup totally...I am 95% sure what I'm thinking didn't happen but theres always doubt isn't there....then I ask my work colleague for reassurance as he was with me and of course even though he says nothing happened, you still doubt what hes telling you lol...vicious circle
notenoughwineforthisnotenoughwin...
- Date posted
- 6y
Your memory is just as good as his, you’re just questioning yours because of OCD. Overtime you’ll be 100%. (Not OCD 100% there’s no such thing as Satisfying OCD) Try your best to not ask for reassurance because the compulsion keeps the ocd alive.
SazarollSazaroll
- Date posted
- 6y
yeah it's made me very low....I can still remember stupid things about the night in question and can also remember texting my gf so I'm sure I would remember something as terrible as cheating
SazarollSazaroll
- Date posted
- 6y
mine is fear of having cheated on partner after drinking
notenoughwineforthisnotenoughwin...
- Date posted
- 6y
Yes. I wish I didn’t. I just keep going over a memory over and over to make sure what I imagined didn’t happen in real life. It is extremely scary. I know the imagination isn’t real but I just want to know FOR CERTAIN. But it doesn’t matter, no matter how many times I go over it, I’ll never know FOR CERTAIN. Overtime, I trust my heart and my soul and know what is true, but the imagination “feels” real. As time passes and I continue to fight that compulsion (to ruminate over the memory) my feelings mirror my thoughts and I don’t feel doubt anymore. Does that make sense?
DD15DD15
- Date posted
- 4y
Yes! Literally dealing w the same thing
AnndroowAnndroow
- Date posted
- 6y
That’s the same doubt as with all kind of OCD, if you try to just accept that uncertainty, you’ll be able to think more clear after I while. You’ll get over it, but you have to actively stop pondering it then :)
AnndroowAnndroow
- Date posted
- 6y
Of course, nothing to put energy on, you’ll never get anywhere that will make you satisfied :) But for curiosity, what’s your about? Look at this, quite funny https://youtu.be/prN6_Lt1VZg :)
SazarollSazaroll
- Date posted
- 6y
its all because alcohol was involved and an overnight stay with work colleagues, that has created the doubt
SazarollSazaroll
- Date posted
- 6y
thanks =)
notenoughwineforthisnotenoughwin...
- Date posted
- 6y
I had the same thing happen to me when I was in college. I went over to the guys dorm room drunk as hell and my bf gaslighted me about it. I asked the guy for reassurance and he said nothing happened but what if he lied? Doesn’t matter. I wasn’t black out drunk and I know it didn’t happen in my heart but I kept going over it to make surrrrre. Eventually, I found out he was cheating on me so I left him anyway. I am now 100% sure. I’ve had a couple of false memory episodes that nearly killed me, but I’m doing ok. I know myself and the routine. It will get better.
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- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 24w
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Can it feel like you literally remember a false memory happening? And it feels like the memory has always been there and you vividly remember it happening that way? Because I don’t even know if I’m experiencing a false memory or not but god it feels so fucking real. Like I literally remember it happening. But what’s weird is the original memory was kind of different. 2 years later, the memory is not the same, but it feels like I literally remember it happening. And in this memory, I’m fucking snapping. I’m acting on my thoughts. I feel like a fucking psycho. I hope this is just OCD
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- Date posted
- 24w
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- Date posted
- 20w
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