I feel like it all will be exposed and i no longer feel like a bad person for these compulsions because I’ve researched them and they’re common and typical for OCD but other people don’t know that and I just shouldn’t have done them and I feel like I’ve ruined my life
I’m not sure what to say, because I’m newer here, but I wanted to let you know you’re not alone.
Try not to worry about this. There is nothing to expose. You have ocd!
Thank you. I’m very open about my compulsions on here but I feel like people who don’t know OCD would just think I’m weird. I dealt with all types of sexual ocd (POCD, zoophelia, incest, you name it), so you can imagine the compulsions were tedious and at times traumatic for me. I also have had severe OCD about pornography, and felt the need to check for every video I’ve ever seen and remember the titles and screenshot some. This was an irrational and stupid compulsion, and brought me even worse ocd about “what if the one i screenshotted was something horrible”. It just never stops. I just want to live in peace. Sorry for the rant just needed to get that out.
@anonymous You’re good! The same thing happened to me. With all of it. It’s all so difficult.
Try not to analyze the past so much. That is, as you said, a compulsion. And acting on compulsions is only going to feel worse in the long run. I completely understand how strong the urge is to make sure you didn’t do anything wrong. But in reality, your ocd is only being a bully and making you think you did something terrible when it probably wasn’t even that bad at all. When these thought come up, shrug them off as, “Oh, yeah, fun times”. That sounds crazy, I know, but treating your ocd as less seriously as possible is key to feeling a lot better!