Is it just me that have some moments of clarity? Anxiety never completely vanishes, but it's just enough so I can see clearly my situation, and see that this isn't who I am. And then, I realize: omg, I stopped worrying! But shouldn't I be trying to solve this? And then BAM! Anxiety kicks in again, and I'm no longer able to discern my thoughts, and I keep worrying if they're true, like those moments of clarity meant nothing or didn't happen at all.

personnn

Date posted: 6y

omg. yes. every single day. it’ll stop for a little and i laugh and i’m like wow i knew these thoughts were fake. then bam it hits me and i’m like oh shit what did i just do haha

Jake12

Date posted: 6y

Every. Day.

Jake12

Date posted: 6y

What I’m trying to do is just be content. I find that if I look for that EUREKA moment, I get worried and anxious that I won’t keep it. Trying to find the happiness is keeping the anxiety alive. So what I’m trying to do is just be content with everything, live my life before this happened, and then hope and pray happiness will follow.

Jake12

Date posted: 6y

I completely understand, really I do. And I wish I could say something to make you feel better. But the best thing I can say is this: once you get your anxiety under control NOT ELIMINATE IT, but manageable, our OCD makes us prone to worry, whether we won’t hold on to the happiness, whether it’ll come back, etc etc, but once you get it to manageable, be satisfied with that. And you will. Don’t look for that happiness feeling, don’t look for solutions. Trust the uncertainty that happiness will follow.

Lavander

Date posted: 6y

It's a very hard thing to do, though. Life isn't the same, no matter what I do. I don't care about normal things like I used to. It's really saddening for me to think that I'd rather not having been born. I used to love being alive, and having so much beautiful expectations for the future. Now I'm in a dark pit, and I can't see the light.

personnn

Date posted: 6y

do anxiety medications help with ocd? like i know it calms the anxiety down and everything and i’m going on lots of medications soon and so i was wondering if some of the meds will help calm down ocd

lou47

Date posted: 6y

Well some do but I changed from paroxetine (was on it 10 or so years) to fluoxetine for the last 6 weeks. I am going back to paroxetine because although I had flare ups of my OCD I never had this Mich anxiety. The Prozac (fluoxetine) has given me SO much anxiety I can't believe it. Never again will I mess with my meds!! Over 30 odd years of having OCD I have never had diazepam to calm me down because I have refused it......but now I have!! Xx

nae nae

Date posted: 25w

Tired of feeling like a bad person

I genuinely can't help but feel irredeemable over every little mistake made or regret I've had. It's so up and down, but I just miss the certainty. Knowing "this is who I am." I'm so disconnected from myself. Like, I'm really, really trying. Today is really rough... I got triggered the other night, and it's been hell since. I've been fighting seeking reassurance. I want it so, so incredibly bad, but I know it won't help me :( Some days, I just don't want to be here. It's funny because yesterday I felt amazing until I got triggered. I just immediately spiraled after that. I don't know. Does it genuinely get better? Will therapy really help me? Sometimes, I think maybe this is the best it'll get, and that scares me. Sorry for the vent. I'm just feeling so overwhelmingly anxious right now. I can't even cry (due to Zoloft). It feels claustrophobic somehow, having all these emotions trapped inside of my body with nowhere to go 😭

alan87

Date posted: 17w

The ebbs and flow of OCD

The past month or so I have been in and out of OCD spirals. I’ll have a couple days of spiraling and then a couple days of being better. Then a couple days spiraling and then a couple days doing better. Today is one of those days where I can feel the anxiety under the surface and where I am monitoring it to see/keep it in check. Yesterday I was good, I had good dialogue in my mind, I was content with making mistakes in the past, but being a better human and person these days going forward. I can feel the ebb and flow of it today where the anxiety spikes, my internal dialogue say “am I going to freak out”, “confess this”, “say that”, “don’t say that”, “I’m a bad person”, “I’m a good person that is learning and growing every day” etc etc. Then the anxiety comes down, my mind feels clearer, less noisy and less physical feeling, and I feel like I don’t care about the OCD and me as much. Just been feeling the ebbs and flows of OCD over the course of months and days, and even within the day itself.

James Hancock

Date posted: 15w

Question, who has felt better?

Like to the point of your mind being yours? And not being anxious or harassed by your thoughts 24/7? I just wanna know if escape is possible?

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