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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
I've had obsessions and compulsions for years. But until about 2 weeks ago. I didn't know thats what they were. I had my first episode at 8 years old. I'm 45 now. I always knew something was off. But I never told anyone about my symptoms. I just assumed what I was experiencing was normal. I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety years ago, but always thought there was more to it than just simple anxiety. I also have panic disorder. OCD was never even on my radar. I always thought OCD was needing to have things a certain way and washing your hands a lot. I had no idea it could manifest many different ways. I got an official OCD diagnosis last Tuesday and start ERP tomorrow.
I hope it all goes well
@Overcomer Thank you. Me too.
Congratulations on finally getting diagnosed! Therapy has helped me a ton (ERP specifically). Right now I am having trouble thinking of those weird thoughts I could dismiss so easily and not trying to figure out if they were true bc I was able to dismiss them when I had milder, undiagnosed ocd vs my now severe ocd. Its so hard
Yes i had a thought along with my theme a little while before and I wish I could dismiss them as quickly as I did then lol
Now I think of that one as “proof”
@unknown Me too! I remmeber old thoughts I had about my theme and how I was just dismissed these thoughts. And I didn't care. I would get thoughts that they were true too and dismissed them pretty quick. Pretty sure I accepted them then as just thoughts but now i feel like i accepted them as truth and that they were true
@Hopeforthefuture I also use to able to easily do that. Sometimes I’ll even put if off to later. At our lowest point we forget of not motivated to do that n get lost in it. But we can get back to it
For me it was a weird intrusive thought and after that I slowly started developing anxiety and I felt a weird thing like I was losing my attraction to girls. Then I woke up one day in complete panic cuz it felt like I had lost feelings for girls suddenly and I started searching online how to know if you’re gay if sexuality changes suddenly and I took some gay tests or sexuality tests online. Chat gpt was a big thing back then too. That was before therapy and before I knew what ocd is.Can anyone relate?
I’ve had different themes of ocd throughout my life. Can they all differ such as how the thoughts may present? Currently my thoughts feel so true immediately (like they genuinely feel like what I think) but in the last theme I feel like it may have been more of a “what if I think this” type of situation
Whenever anyone starts to feel like their thoughts are less triggering or they feel a moment of happiness/ relief OCD tells you that you want the thoughts back or you actually like having the thoughts and maybe thats just the person I really am? I feel like im going insane😢
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