- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
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Trigger Warning: Suicide Iām 21(Female) just for reference Anyone else struggling with OCD so much to where you feel so isolated, confused, burnout, suffering & in astonishing emotional pain & agony. I promise yall arenāt alone in the feelings. I promise you there is someone going through similar, obviously our lives arenāt identical, but our struggles can be very similar. Itās even harder dealing with trauma, split parents, abusive parent(s), a sick parent at the same time as all of this. It feels like God or the universe just WANTS you to struggle. Like itās punishment for something you did as a kid or teenager. Iām dealing with all this exactly. Sometimes I just want support. So I hope this message can be support for someone struggling too & hope it helps them be able to breathe a little easier & gives them strength to go on another day. I just would like to mention if you have access to therapy take advantage of it. The therapists are not there to judge you but I promise itās a them issue & youāre not a horrible person. When I used to think of suicide often I started to think less ādoomsdayishā & realized that I wont know how my life will turn out if I just give up. If you give up you wonāt ever know. Whether your situation will improve, & all the fear in your heart just gone. You could miss out on that freedom and happiness youāve been waiting for in this current life we are living. One last thing I want to point out that Iāve thought about is that we donāt know how many more people are out there struggling with this. I think theyāre maybe afraid of judgement. Basically what Iām implying is I feel like there are so many others out there who donāt want to speak up & are struggling with this. Everything on their conscious being afraid to even write it down. I just feel in my heart that there are others who keep these issues to themselves. I think I feel it in my heart because that was me once. Feeling like my story was different, afraid at thought of even telling a stranger(therapist) who could judge me. I did not want to be perceived badly. Iām 21 years old & wish I had the courage to speak up sooner I feel like I couldāve started seeing the light at the end of the tunnel sooner but thatās okay. Speak up for you, you do not have to wake up in fear everyday or contemplate suicide everyday. Even if it feels like youāre your only cheerleader. Sending a virtual hug to all because I know what itās like to just want to be held & told that everything is going to work out. you never know what others are going through, be the person who isnāt afraid to extend your heart to others, try & breathe a little more, take care of yourselves, remember you arenāt alone no matter your situation, stay strong To the suicidal person reading this, youāre resilient & strong. Sending a virtual hugā¤ļø.
Iām sure itās been a rough few days for everyone, maybe even weeks or months. Hell, this last YEAR has been up and down for me! But I wanted to take this moment to congratulate everyone for coming this far. Itās no small feat! OCD is a killer, and itās good at its job! The fact that all of you are still here fighting is a testament to how strong you are! We may not have the answers or explanation to everything, and thatās okay. We have to stay in the present, not the past or the future. Remember to practice being uncertain! Itās hard to remember the good days weāve had despite all these horrible ones! Thereās no scar to show for happiness, but weāve got plenty to show for misery and pain. Keep hanging on, youāve got this!
To my dear OCD friends, I just want to take a moment to say how grateful I am to know each of you. Your courage, honesty, and support have meant more to me than you know. In the trenches of this struggle, itās easy to feel alone, but then you all show up (raw, real, and brave) and remind me what strength truly looks like. Some days the emotions hit like a wave, or like a distressed baby crying out for comfort. And instead of pushing that pain away, weāve learned to sit with it. To cradle it. To breathe with it. To say, āYouāre allowed to be here, and I wonāt run.ā That is powerful. That is healing. Exposures are not just tools, theyāre acts of defiance. Each time we step toward our core fears instead of away from them, weāre not just surviving⦠weāre becoming ocdemonslayers. Weāre refusing to let a false alarm dictate our worth or our reality. Thatās no small thing. Please remember: nothing in this life is worth ending it early. The storm feels so loud sometimes, but storms do pass. Life has seasons, and the darkest ones are often followed by the most beautiful dawns. Hold on. You are not your thoughts. You are not alone. God is good through it all; in the fear, in the doubt, in the healing, in the stillness. Even when we canāt feel it, His grace holds us steady. He sees the battle and walks it with us. Iām truly happy to know all of you. Thank you for being part of this fight with me. With love, Salad #ocdemonslayers
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