I just wanna love my life. I DESERVE IT WHY CANT I HAVE IT. I AM SO TIRED I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE. I NEED MY LIFE. I HAVE SO MANY DREAMS SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO! OCD DESTROYS MY LIFE. DIZZINESS, PINS AND NEEDLE'S, DIFFICULTY BREATHING, BREATHING TICS ARE DESTROYING mY PEACE. It's so so sad I'm 17 years old and I suffer since 9. OCD is something I would wish even to my worst enemy and I tell this with my whole heart. I wish it wouldn't exist. I need my life back. I am crying , I am worrying especially health anxiety. I can't be that bad anymore. This has to stop. I can't worry constantly about if I have a serious illness, about during or paralyzing, about becoming blind, about becoming crazy. This is insane!!!! Who the f@@k asked me and gave me these feelings. I want to be normal. I WANT TO F@@KING LIVE MY LIFE

I have a therapist. I wish the best to you. You know it's very hard to experience all these symptoms and then overthinking them

@Love12 Yes, it is.

@Lms526 Do you know or have you experienced the following symptom. 1 year now I can feel and hear my neck quietly crack and grip when I move it only a little bit. I feel it in my head. Now I can feel it in my arms and legs when I try to write something. The sound is like popping

@Love12 I have this. You are holding tension in your neck and shoulders.

Yes I will in 2 days. But I'm afraid that something bad will happen till tjen

@Love12 Get it checked but then you need to move on. From one hypochondriac to another i will say its easy to start reasurance seeking from your doctor

@BritD I agree but now I'm afraid that the thing I have will get worse till my appointment. Thats my fear

@BritD Agreed!

Not necessarily great advice for someone with health OCD. Going to doctors can be a compulsion.

@cheyras It's the yearly checkup and I'm going to state this symptom between others

@Love12 Right. I mean, you definitely don’t want to completely avoid going to the doctor either, I was more talking about going in “just to get the peace of mind” because it doesn’t work that way. With OCD, the doctor could tell you everything’s fine and then you just want a second opinion because you don’t believe it.

@cheyras Yes I agree. I'm going to visit a pathologist and she will probably send me to a neurologist because of the symptoms and also a swollen lymph behind the ear which was treated and then reappeared. I was avoiding this situation 1 year now. Also I'm afraid that something will happen till the appointment. I'm very afraid I can't sleep

@Love12 I’m sorry to hear that. We’re right in the middle of a similar thing with my wife who also has OCD (we both have it lol, makes things interesting.) Before we realized she also has it, she had been going to tons of doctors appointments and one day it kind of dawned on us: wait a minute, I think this might be OCD!

@cheyras Really wish you the best!!!