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Really?! Could you possibly share? Not if you don’t feel comfortable! Just knowing that makes me feel less alone!
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You’re definitely just suffering real event OCD. Embrace the uncomfortable feelings around the memory and don’t do any compulsions like avoiding your dog, analyzing, ruminating over it. Your OCD will get bored and move on
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Asking for reassurance will keep this memory around longer but I will let you know you lots of people do similar stuff and it doesn’t make them bad people what so ever. Human’s are naturally curious and do odd things sometimes. You’re not special. You love your dog and deserve to let this go.. now don’t go asking for anymore reassurance and you’ll be ok 😊 practice self compassion
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Thank you so much for your kind words and advice!!!
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Thank you so much for putting a name to it. I’ve suffered from several themes but never this one so I appreciate you clarifying what it is and taking the time to respond. @jessA
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No worries at all. It’s a tough theme to get past. Reassurance becomes like a drug
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This happened to me. This happens to me EVERY. DAY. With my dog or any dog, but it feels like torture. To avoid your dog is a compulsion. I began to pee in front of my dog, (they do not know you are naked), I began to shower and just walk past my dog. You have to accept uncertainty. I know in my heart I do not desire to sexually abuse my dog, but OCD won’t let me embrace that reality, so embrace uncertainty. Do not avoid your dog. I was so scared at times, still am, but it gets better!
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I can honestly say THANK YOU, THANK YOU for acknowledging that even simply potentially making your dog do that you is dog abuse. Many times OCD tried to convince me it isn’t dog abuse, but I know it is. You are a kind person. I too, couldn’t be around my dog…… I can assure you you simply not wanting to be around your dog ensures you don’t want to do that. But you have to accept uncertainty until it all fades away.
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Thank you so much for sharing your story and giving some great advice! Could you speak more on what you said in the last post you wrote about acknowledging it’s dog abuse? Is this what you did to help you?
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I don’t actually think it is animal abuse at all.. but accepting it’s something that doesn’t line up with your values rather than trying to convince OCD you did nothing wrong is helpful because OCD will always have a return argument and the conversation is never ending
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That’s a great stance on it. I’ve identified my top 10 values and they are on my mirror so I see them when I wake up. So do you think it’s best if I state. “This did not line up with my values”?
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I think that’s probably a good idea and follow up with some self compassion like every human being on this planet wishes they could go back and change something from their past.. you’re not alone 😊… tbh I don’t think you did anything that warrants the guilt you’re feeling, but that doesn’t satisfy OCD and it never will. The only way past is acceptance, lean into those uncomfortable feelings and continue with your day. They will fade with time. There is no quick fix and OCD is forever looking for a quick fix. I learnt this the hard way
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@JessA 🌞 Okay. I’ll definitely do that. thank you so much for all your support!
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Hey, my OCD latches on to something similar if you need someone to talk to. X
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I think I know what honestly is what caused my OCD. I’ve never told anyone this but I have to if I want help. When I was either 10 or 11, I think 10 I was at my family’s thanksgiving dinner. Around this time I discovered porn and got addicted. I would watch porn and read erotica. Because of this I guess I wanted to experiment. I feel absolutely horrible just thinking about this but I was playing around with my little cousin, he was around 7 I think and I remember we were playing chase or hide and seek, and I grabbed him and hugged him (something I never done before), and got a boner. I did this for pleasure. That’s all I did that was sexual but I feel so horrible. I try to give myself grace as I was only 10 and didn’t know the consequences of something so disgusting. I keep thinking “what if I went farther and hurt him?”. I talk to him sometimes and he seems comfortable with me and I think he doesn’t even remember this ever happened and just thought I hugged him for some reason all those years ago. I am NOT attracted to him at all but I think this incident and remembering it when I was 14 has caused my OCD such as POCD for all these years. I am 18 now but I feel absolutely horrible. And now it’s even worse because I have been invited to his 15th birthday party in Mexico. I’m traveling all the way to another country just to be near him! Obviously I know I won’t touch him or be innopropriate with him. But what if he has felt uncomfortable with me all this time? He seems fine with me and not uncomfortable around me but still. If I feel as if I go to this trip, I am a horrible person. I don’t know what to do. Am I a horrible person for what I did and continuing to be around him? I remember reading Reddit and Quora stories of similar people who felt horrible and people told them to not feel bad as they were only children and they learned and now know that was wrong and that to not tell anyone as it could only make things extremely awkward.Please help. I know COCSA is a very serious topic that harms people and I feel like a horrible perpetrator now.
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tw: nsfw 17f I have a real even ocd from a sexual event with an animal (my cat) from where I was younger. Remembering it ruined my life and made it a living hell. It was bad. It's not one of those innocent events people always assume because I have ocd and then they get all surprised when it was actually bad and sexual. (animal wasn't harmed though) So basically I developed I fear of interacting or even looking at animals after I remembered so I was avoiding my cat like crazy, but then I realized that it's cruel to ignore an animal who wants love and attention, so I forced myself to overcome it kinda. I basically downloaded a habit tracker where I mark when I was able to pet my cat cause while it's triggering I want to give my cat love and I'm trying to pet her everyday So yesterday I was petting the cat. And she was extremely enthusiastic about it. Like she was almost throwing herself on me to get more pets like kinda agressive at this point to get pets. I started thinking how animals go in heat in spring. But she is like sterilized so I wasnt sure its possible for her. Like maybe they are just more active in spring? But what if the pets are somehow sexual for the cat? Then I thought maybe I shouldn't pet her then cause that's wrong. But then I thought like who cares and also then it will be like this the whole spring should I just not touch her the whole spring and ignore her again? I was also tired a bit so I wasn't thinking it all through that much Now I'm freaking out so bad. Like I knew there was a possibility that it was sexual for the cat and still continued petting her I didn't stop. It's so bad. Like I thought its whatever since it's not sexual for me but now I'm freaking out. Like the whole me being a better person and learning on my mistakes after that one earlier event was for nothing if I was able to do something like this I'm freaking out so bad
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(21+ ONLY: TRIGGER WARNING) I’ve been increasingly worried that I’m a zoophile (among other things) and that I’m attracted to my family dog. I love him and I take care of him—I take him out to poop and pee, I play with him, and I feed and water him. But I get nervous when I have to be around him for a long time—I get these thoughts and they just won’t stop. I’ll find myself looking at my dog’s privates and having these strange urges. I feel horrible—like I could’ve done something to him or touched him inappropriately and conveniently don’t remember. I don’t know what to do…
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