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Really?! Could you possibly share? Not if you don’t feel comfortable! Just knowing that makes me feel less alone!
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You’re definitely just suffering real event OCD. Embrace the uncomfortable feelings around the memory and don’t do any compulsions like avoiding your dog, analyzing, ruminating over it. Your OCD will get bored and move on
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Asking for reassurance will keep this memory around longer but I will let you know you lots of people do similar stuff and it doesn’t make them bad people what so ever. Human’s are naturally curious and do odd things sometimes. You’re not special. You love your dog and deserve to let this go.. now don’t go asking for anymore reassurance and you’ll be ok 😊 practice self compassion
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Thank you so much for your kind words and advice!!!
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Thank you so much for putting a name to it. I’ve suffered from several themes but never this one so I appreciate you clarifying what it is and taking the time to respond. @jessA
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No worries at all. It’s a tough theme to get past. Reassurance becomes like a drug
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This happened to me. This happens to me EVERY. DAY. With my dog or any dog, but it feels like torture. To avoid your dog is a compulsion. I began to pee in front of my dog, (they do not know you are naked), I began to shower and just walk past my dog. You have to accept uncertainty. I know in my heart I do not desire to sexually abuse my dog, but OCD won’t let me embrace that reality, so embrace uncertainty. Do not avoid your dog. I was so scared at times, still am, but it gets better!
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I can honestly say THANK YOU, THANK YOU for acknowledging that even simply potentially making your dog do that you is dog abuse. Many times OCD tried to convince me it isn’t dog abuse, but I know it is. You are a kind person. I too, couldn’t be around my dog…… I can assure you you simply not wanting to be around your dog ensures you don’t want to do that. But you have to accept uncertainty until it all fades away.
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Thank you so much for sharing your story and giving some great advice! Could you speak more on what you said in the last post you wrote about acknowledging it’s dog abuse? Is this what you did to help you?
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I don’t actually think it is animal abuse at all.. but accepting it’s something that doesn’t line up with your values rather than trying to convince OCD you did nothing wrong is helpful because OCD will always have a return argument and the conversation is never ending
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That’s a great stance on it. I’ve identified my top 10 values and they are on my mirror so I see them when I wake up. So do you think it’s best if I state. “This did not line up with my values”?
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I think that’s probably a good idea and follow up with some self compassion like every human being on this planet wishes they could go back and change something from their past.. you’re not alone 😊… tbh I don’t think you did anything that warrants the guilt you’re feeling, but that doesn’t satisfy OCD and it never will. The only way past is acceptance, lean into those uncomfortable feelings and continue with your day. They will fade with time. There is no quick fix and OCD is forever looking for a quick fix. I learnt this the hard way
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@JessA 🌞 Okay. I’ll definitely do that. thank you so much for all your support!
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Hey, my OCD latches on to something similar if you need someone to talk to. X
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18+ so, i just had this memory pop back into my head after suppressing it and now I’m obsessing over it and cant suppress it, it feels so weird that i dont think i can even tell my therapist. so a few years ago, i was high, and laying in bed and my dog was laying in front of my face back to me and i kissed his back like mimicking making out, and dont get me wrong this is not a zocd concern it was not attraction im not worried that i touched him sexually im just really weirded out by that memory like someone gauge how weird and immoral that is for me and like i was not a kid, i was an adult its freaking me out like??? tf i do not know how i manage to suppress shit like this like i didnt think it was weird when i was high and i think i remember waking up spiraling about it and then decided to shut it down bcs i had what felt like bigger ocd shit fish to fry and it just popped back up and im spiraling
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*tmi warning* I'm so worried im a P. Ive been crying daily unable to do anything else but ruminate over my real events. When i was 14 (before ocd) i was watching adult content and it was censored. The woman had similar features like hair and skin color as my niece. I remember noticing that and saying "huh i guess I'll imagine that as the adult version of my niece" and I did and after i was finished i moved on and didnt think anything was wrong. I dont know if i ever thought about that again? Its so blurry ocd keeps saying i did it again in a different time but i dont remember its too blurry and its scaring me so badly! I didnt even remember this till like literally last week and i wanted to die! Im 20 for context. When I remembered i immediately broke down in tears. I vaguely rmemeber this other thought i had of her when self pleasuring when I was 16??? I think it was a testing thought out of distress? But im not sure at all! It was extremely vague image and unrealistic i dont think I liked it but maybe i did?! Im so distressed its like i remmeber 2 versions of this particular event which is why I think its ocd false memories from there. Ive been ruminating and spiraling for almost a week. I keep crying i havent ate well at all in days ive been honestly dehydrating myself and i cannot sleep. I feel like a monster. I did the mistake of researching last night and kept comparing myself to the "criteria" of those sickos and like I felt so distressed. I also have been asking ai for hours on end everyday. I feel so distressed im literally crying rn as i write this i cant calm down i feel like this sick individual even tho I dont even like thinking of that at all i dont think I meant ill intent when i was a teen but its killing me inside. I would NEVER harm anyone nor want to or plan to, deep down i know I would never act out in those evil ways but like whats killing me is what if im attracted?! Is this a sign?! Am i one of those people?! Am i attracted to my niece bc of those 2 maybe even 3(??)thoughts years ago?! Did i mean ill intent?! Am I an actual danger?! Am I a monster??? I have so many urges to confess to my mom im so scared what this all means or could mean. I feel so alone and scared. Like legit whenever i get intrusive thoughts about gross stuff i feel disgusted and anxious and push it away. Those thoughts do not bring me pleasure whatsoever but this real event is making me doubt my own identity 😔
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