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- 4y
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
It’s OCD OCD is a pain in the ass It wants you to doubt and question everything It feels horrible when you feel so stuck in your brain Talking to people who understand how you feel can make you feel better I’m doing ERP with a therapist who I was recommended by NOCD It’s really helped I have felt the way you feel but I’m a lot better now
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- 4y
Are you a Christian?
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- 4y
No I’m not,but all the religious books say the same thing, i do believe In bible and in quran.its all the god words.
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- 4y
Your OCD is lying to you. I have felt all of this. I know going to therapy is scary. But it is so with it. I was terrified to share some of my OCD thoughts. But the therapist's expression didn't even change. OCD is not something you can defeat on your own. I really think you should consider going to counseling.
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- 4y
It doesn’t matter what you have done. If you murdered someone, raped someone, whatever it is. All human beings are worthy of love, forgiveness, and happiness. We are not defined by past mistakes. We have ALL sinned and hurt people. This is part of being human. I experience the same feelings as you, but am learning that I am not the exception to the rule that everyone deserves love even though I have hurt so many people. Why can’t you go to therapy? You clearly really need to go.
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- 4y
When day I have to answer for all of my acts,and god may not be so merciful.,
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- 4y
@Laith Don’t you believe in a merciful god?
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- 4y
@Anonymous God is merciful but he can’t treat the bad people as same as bad people.
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- 4y
@Laith None of us are all “good” or all “bad.” We are all somewhere in the middle or on a spectrum. I personally believe murderers and pedophiles and rapists and robbers and everyone deserves forgiveness and understanding because we learn from making mistakes.
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- Date posted
- 19w
Hey i dont even know if i belong here or not because i dont think so i have ocd i am just making an excuse for the past crimes i have committed i am 18 now and about to be 19 so just wanted to share something i know for sure i have done this crime when i was 13 or 14 because why would i think and feel guilty over an act i have never committed for 5 years so yeah i came to know about this thing OCD and now i am putting my crimes to it and false memory that kinda stuff but in my mind its always like that "you have done those acts i have proof" after asking my sister 3 times that do you even remember a glimpse of my inapproriate behaviour towards you but no she has answered "nope if i did i would tell you i never felt uncomfortable around you " well how may she remember when she was sleeping when i did those acts and yeah she was 12 too so she must be a deep sleeper well my mind have too much proof that i am a sexual abuser i dont know why i am still typing but just wanted to know do i deserve to live anymore because according to me i am done i cant tolerate these disgusting thoughts about my sister and i may be a threat to her and i dont deserve to live in this family i love them so much but i cant do it anymore i am such a monster they deserve so much better
- Date posted
- 14w
I would really appreciate it so much if someone took the time to read this and help me. I don’t know what to do anymore. I haven’t posted here in awhile. I had my OCD managed pretty decently for a year or so on medication, but I had to stop taking it, and after around 3-4 months, the OCD has become unbearable again. It used to be much more surrounding existential themes, eating, and others, not really real event/false memory stuff. But now it’s gotten really out of hand and I don’t know how to do it anymore. It’s surrounding a time of my life a long time ago. It was a dark time. I wasn’t myself and I was going through a lot of things, and I did a lot of things I regret. I self-destructed, embarrassed myself, and wasn’t good to the people around me. I was able to get my mind off of it for a long time, even though I would still think about it a good amount. I was able to be in the present, at least moreso than now. But now that I’m off medication, the guilt has become my obsession again. I can’t move on. I can’t do anything without thinking about all of these memories. I’m obsessed. I’ve started hating myself again, so much so that it’s hard to do anything anymore or believe I deserve anything good. The people around me tell me it wasn’t even that bad, but to me it was. To me, I failed myself, lost myself, and failed everyone around me. I can’t stop thinking about every person I said something wrong to or every time I screwed up. I’ve now started to convince myself I did terrible things I can’t remember, and that my mind just can’t deal with it. And that’s why I feel so guilty. There’s nothing to really support this though. But I’m starting to really convince myself that’s true. I’m trying not to listen to it, because I’ve convinced myself I have hit people with my car before and haven’t remembered when I absolutely didn’t and I know I never have. I drive back over and over to check there’s no one, even though I never heard any bang or felt myself anything. I can convince myself of some crazy false memories. So I know that I shouldn’t listen. But it’s hard not to when I have this guilt gnawing at me constantly. I come to conclusions that this guilt must be because I did something terrible that I don’t remember, even though I already think the things I remember were bad enough. But I would know by now right? If I did something bad I don’t remember? I don’t feel like this all the time. But it’s a lot of the time. But maybe that should be reassuring, that I only start obsessing like this when I think to. The past haunts me though. And I can never be in the present. I’ve started to resort to some unhealthy behaviors to distract myself or help me work towards something. I am starting to hate myself so much and feel like there’s no way I’ll ever be able to get out of this loop. I feel like I just can’t do this anymore. Maybe I need to go back on medication. But I don’t know. I don’t really want to. But will I ever fix this without it? Why do I feel SO guilty, all of the time? I do all these things for people because I feel indebted to them, because I feel undeserving of everything. I feel awful about myself. I don’t know what to do. Does anyone else deal with this?
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