Can you explain how this is a compulsion? I do this too and never realized it was one!
Did this today. It’s sucks
How is this self sabotaging if I may ask? Sounds like you’re doing exposures,
And the key should be to do that exposure and practice response prevention while doing it.
I do this too as a compulsion. And also, in therapy I’ve done the exact same thing (like literally googling the same thing) as an exposure. I know it is confusing, but it was all about my attitude going in and emotional regulation during the process. I know compulsions are supposed to be things that relieve our stress (temporarily) but many of my compulsions make things immediately worse and I still do them. (??)
I have exactly the same pattern. It’s like a compulsion to google things that I know will make me upset and feel horrible about myself. It’s so hard to stop.