Ok so this is going to be lengthy and probably have many mistakes so I apologize in advance. I used to live somewhere completely different to where I live now. I lived back in my hometown until I was 10. That was a living nightmare for me. I was bullied lots and had lots of very traumatizing things happen to me that are a VERY big part to my ocd today. When I was very young like 7 or 8 I was at a sleepover with another girl and she was pressuring me into doing things that I was very uncomfortable doing. She was pressuring me to take some of my clothes off. At the time I was very young and didn’t know right from wrong and didn’t know what to do so because she was being very peer pressure to me I did so because I was scared. I have never been able to come to peace with myself after this even though I have been told that I did NOTHING wrong and that I was very young and stuff. But then I moved somewhere completely different, and lost contact with everyone because I knew that it was too much for me to handle. Today someone from there reached out me ( a good person) and wanted to talk and catch up. I did talk to her for a little bit (it’s not the same person that pressured me) and I texted her after telling her how I needed to lose contact with here because so many of my intrusive thoughts came from living there, so being in contact with people was mentally not ok with me. She was completely understanding and all’s good. But I’m wondering. What happened with that girl. Should I fee guilt about? Or is this my ocd. I just need some other opinions. Please help me out!

I really really want to talk to a therapist but I just don’t know how to ask my mom. I know she will be ok with it but I know it’s going to break her when she finds out why.

@LoveyDuck You don't necessarily have to tell her at this moment the whole story. I believe today's parents understand the need for therapy. Try letting her know you've been under a lot of stress and have been struggling with some things lately and think talking through things with a therapist would help. If your parents ask for details, mention that you're not ready to share but when you are ready, you will let them know. Basically, let them know you are appreciative of them caring but are not ready to talk about things just yet. (You may end up choosing not to share anything with your parents and that is fine too). It will take a lot of courage to ask for help, but you can do this! You can do hard things!!!

@Bailey253 Ok thank you so much. I am really going to try my best. I’ll will update when the times comes. I can’t thank you enough. This was a great post and very informative and helpful. Thank you! Hope all goes well with you!

I think the thing personally that really got to me was the fact that it was so pressured. I said manytimes that I was fine and didn’t want to but kept getting pressured. And with the ocd now I’m having trouble securing my story. I keep thinking what I’m saying could be wrong or something idk.

@LoveyDuck What part are you worried is wrong?

This is very dismissive. Just because you are fine with changing in front of others or skinny dipping doesn’t mean others are. Avoiding because of this situation means that it was traumatic for LoveyDuck. Trauma is real and shouldn’t be minimized. LoveyDuck definitely reach out for therapy. As a mom I really do think your mom will be open to therapy for you. You don’t need to give many details and anything you say to yourself therapist will be kept confidential. You choose what details to share outside of therapy

@BritD Than you very much! It’s nice to know this from another perspective! I am going to try my best to reach out to my mom. I really want to partake in therapy I just don’t know how to bring up the idea? Thanks once again. I really liked this post!

@LoveyDuck I would just say something to the effect of you have been struggling from anxiety and feel that speaking with a therapist could help. I think pretty much every human could benefit from therapy of some sort. Trauma is real and NOBODY gets to determine what it traumatic to someone else. Your trauma is real and you deserve to work through that and live a full life.

@BritD Thank you so very much. You couldn’t have said it anything better. Thank you so much for your insight! It means a lot to me that people feel as though therapy is a benefit. It should make talking to my mom a whole lot easier! Thank you so much. I really enjoyed talking with you! Thank you, and I hope all goes well with you!

So you are afraid you undressed or did what you did because you were pressured to do so? And why would that be bad/wrong of you? Don’t we all do things we are pressured to do?

@Anonymous That is very true. To be honest at this point it was a long time ago so it’s not something that is playing a huge role at the moment in my life, but your right. I don’t know why something like that would bother me 🤷‍♀️

@LoveyDuck Yea it sounds like you are just a normal human being. Idk maybe someone could think of that as bad but do you really want to think you are bad every time you do something because you feel peer pressured?