- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
It's a challenge, but just sitting with the urge to review and not reviewing. Learning to sit with the thought itself as well as "maybe it happened. Maybe it didn't."
Remind yourself that if u didn’t rmemeber it then, it’s not important enough to remember now
What do you mean? For me i had thought of something from the past and was so anxious and then i was unsure if it really happened like that and now i feel like i need to review
I actually disagree with this- at least based on my own personal experience because it didn’t work for me. I have found that to be a form of self reassurance. Because then it just leads to but WHAT IF I really just didn’t remember until now. I have learned that I HAVE TO accept that they very worst case scenario may have occurred and I have to live with it and choose to love myself unconditionally anyway.
My real-events are terrible. I'm plagued daily by multiple awful things I did as a child / teenager (please don't downplay it.) I've grown into a better person, but the memories won't let me see any progress. It feels as if my insides are dying from grief and shame. How do you go day to day not picturing yourself as a monster?
I had a really bad nightmare revolving around one of my big themes and I woke up with the panic still left over the dream as if it was real and I kept thinking about the situations. I tried to tell myself it was just a dream, but then it made me question real life. So then it was a cycle of ruminating about the events as though they were real and my reality which really messed me up bc my biggest theme right now is becoming schizophrenic/catatonic/"crazy." I feel stuck in a loop, I've tried saying the "maybes" and even talking to my partner about other things but it just keeps looping in my head "am I crazy?" "I can't differentiate between dreams" "I feel like I'm stuck in my head and I can't even talk". Any tips? I feel like I'm at the crescendo of my 20 years (lifelong) ocd due to stress from moving soon.
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