I feel like I don’t have enough anxiety for it to be ocd

I think you should talk to a professional about it. My OCD has always been there, but didn't get really distressing until a few years ago. Sometimes, if you can catch and work on early signs of OCD, you can prevent worse anxiety from it. If you don't have OCD, that's actually a good thing. It's not fun and it gets really bad sometimes. If you talk to a trained specialist, you may get more of a sense for what you're going through and what next steps to take 🙂

it technically is an anxiety disorder (but im honestly not even sure why it’s classified that way). so many emotions can accompany ocd, not just anxiety i.e. despair, terror, hopelessness, self hate etc.

For some themes my OCD manifests much more in depression than in anxiety. Other themes it’s shame and others it’s anxiety. OCD can bring out all the bad emotions.