hunty
- Date posted
- 3y
cmariacmaria
- Date posted
- 3y
This has helped me, knowing that: OCD thoughts are ego-dystonic i.e. inconsistent with a person's values. The reason you are worried is because you care so much about not feeling this way, because it is so the opposite of your character, and that's how it gets to you.
huntyhunty
- Date posted
- 3y
So what can I do? Just ignore the thought and live my life? This thought really bugs me! I have a husband, whom I love so much. I’m really even thinking of going on meds :(
cmariacmaria
- Date posted
- 3y
know that SO many people have these thoughts, but people without OCD (me once!) can have them as fleeting thoughts and not pay any attention to them. with OCD we can't ignore them, but we can slowly learn to see them as normal and not anything to be afraid of. talking helps normalise SO much. I have told my partner about thinking these exact things too and thought it was the worst thing in the world, but it didn't even phase him. if you feel ready to talk to your partner you can do it alongside showing him material on OCD so he can understand it is all part of OCD and not you as a person. I'm considering going back on meds, they helped me so much and shouldn't be looked down on!
huntyhunty
- Date posted
- 3y
You’ve had a thought like “i want to be _____” ? like its so weird , if I wanted to be I’d just be out there engaging in pedophilic behaviors right ? :/ Its so weird , last night I was having very saddening & inappropriate thoughts of my baby niece & nephews that I did not enjoy at all . I already have enough shame with POCD , why would I really want to be one …. I even want to take a polygraph to challenge this thought lol my judgment is so clouded . I tell myself I don’t want to identify as p like weirdos do & my mind says yes :/ I’m literally reaching out for so much help , meds , residential programs . Because I know once you are in that world its so hard to even consider getting out . I don’t want a life of shame & guilt . I’m sorry to go on , but I could really use help
Anonymous:,(Anonymous:,(
- Date posted
- 3y
@;-; I feel you last night I woke up with anxiety and my mind was trying to convince me I only want to be kids and that I am p word. I didn’t get much sleep and I’m so tired. I’m terrified to have sex or anything like that because my pocd latched on to my little sister and brother and I just get disturbing thoughts and I’m really terrified of me doing something
huntyhunty
- Date posted
- 3y
@Anonymous🤷🏽♀️ This theme is the worst!!!!!
cmariacmaria
- Date posted
- 3y
I would definitely look into therapy and meds if you think it's necessary. I am in a similar boat. I've had thoughts of what if I would do something to a child, what if I am a P and how can I ever have kids? I think it's come up cos I'm getting nearer to an age I might want to have kids, whereas I never had it before and have always been fine and loved being around kids, and obvs I still am but I have this niggling OCD sometimes. It is not you, know that, it is the opposite of you, and there is help out there.
huntyhunty
- Date posted
- 3y
I’ve already finished my therapy with OCD , here on NOCD . & have tools to overcome this theme . But this thought alone is killing me & I’ve made an appointment for meds , I definitely want my life back . OCD just doesn’t want to let go of me
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Faker6532
- Date posted
- 14w
This felt way too real!!
Why the h•••ll did this happen to me? Seriously, I felt like a normal person yesterday, and now this morning, I feel like I am now a p•••do. When I first woke up, I kept thinking about about the usual things about a kid, only this time it felt real. It was like I was into them sexually and because of that, my private parts growed. Even though I kept saying "no, no ,no" a lot, I felt was only talking to open air and it didn't feel like I meant it God, for the last couple of days, I truly felt normal for once, and against these thoughts. But now I know that I am a p•••do and a piece of s••••it for seeing kids that way. If I could go back before all of this happened, I f••••cking would. Because I KNOW I was never like this before.
Anonymousssssss
- Date posted
- 13w
Can someone please offer words of advice :(
Why are things so real the first time they’re in my mind and then when I think about it later it’s easier for me to be like wtf?? I was watching a movie earlier and the young girl had developed more in the chest area than the last movie and I felt the desire to check her out so I did. Then later I let myself imagine her having sex and I liked it. But now looking back I’m like ew. The boys in the movie have also developed as the movie went on and I couldn’t help but think that in their real life they’ve probably woken up to boners and s*men and stuff. And looking back it’s just ugh. Idk if it’s sexual relevance but I genuinely let myself indulge in these thoughts and groinal responses and I remember thinking to myself I don’t want to be attracted to little kids and how do I stop myself (everyone has attractive qualities so in younger boys I see man like qualities). Idk I need help. I wouldn’t type this out if I truly believe I was messed up but I’m still scared
Idontknow
- Date posted
- 12w
Help please
How is this OCD? Who with Pocd thinks about a naked child ???? I was over here thinking if I’m actually attracted to kids because I find some of them good looking you know and my little cousin I have thoughts about her too and I was thinking about her naked but I wasn’t aroused or nothing so that’s where I’m confused It was intentional so does that make me a p*do?
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