I can relate
I would avoid trying to push ocd away. You don’t have control whether it comes or not. What you have control over is how you respond to it. So instead of saying you hope it goes away or gets better. Say “I hope I have the skills and habits that will make it easier for you myself to deal with my ocd if it comes.”
The problem with what you resist, is it persists. So if you try to push away it means you fear it. And if you fear it, it will get stronger. Rather accept it. You shouldn’t care whether it comes or it doesn’t. Because you don’t have to react to it. And it doesn’t have to ruin your day
@Sasha Agreed. If you stop resisting, you WILL get better. That’s the only way to get better. Let Christmas be your motivator and start today!