Recently my Harm OCD gets worse. Reading online can sometimes get me confused. My obsession mainly focuses on whether I will commit suicide. It’s not that I really want to do it. The word “suicide” can make me extremely anxious and terrified. Then, I start to obsess whether I will do it. I start to check and analyze my thoughts because I am afraid it would happen. (Deep in my heart, I just want to be normal and live a happy life.) But, i don’t know and what if? I can’t get the mental images out of my head, and it makes me feel so powerless. Can anyone help?

Tay21 I’m sorry to hear that you’re having that experience, and you’ve had multiple forms of OCD. Know that a community is now here to support you, help you accept uncertainty, and prevent doing compulsions that can make your obsessions worse!

Thank you. J and Mjs. I will try to find a therapist in U.S. online who understands this condition. Thank you.

I’m sorry to hear you’re struggling. I’m sure it’s really tough, but I think one fact you can know is people here understand what you’re going through, and no what it’s like. Although I can’t reassure you about your thoughts, I can say that ocd can be managed and beaten with proper therapy. Have you tried seeing a licensed clinician for your OCD?

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Thank you. Mjs110160, I never see a therapist. I was just prescribed some medication. I don’t know whether there are therapists who really understand OCD in my country and I am afraid misdiagnosis makes me worse.

Serena, what country do you live in? Maybe there isn’t one there, but maybe someone in the US could help you via teletherapy (over the phone/videochat)

Hi Mjs I am in China. I was trying to reach out for help but don’t know how to find a therapist that I can afford. And a bit skeptical about therapy over internet. Really don’t know what to do. Should I overcome this on my own or rely on the medication?

What are your concerns about therapy over the internet? Do you have access to a psychiatrist?

I’ve had this plenty of times. First off, definitely reach out when you feel that way as you did here. Second, remember that you are not alone... Not in your thoughts or in this world. People care. Therapy over the internet is basically the same thing as face to face. Having a good therapist is the true key. Medication is a personal issue/choice. You absolutely have to do the work and progress. Meds alone won’t “cure” it. You can do this! We are here! I need this community and it’s here! Amazing. Hugs to you!

Anytime, Serena. We are here as well if you need a friend(s) to listen.

Serena,你现在好些了吗