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- 3y
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YES. and it makes you question everything. Do you also feel like you need to confess it to someone because you feel so guilty. Like I feel like I need to tell my mom because I feel so guilty and ashamed
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- 3y
when i remembered the memory i was so anxious and yes I did feel the need to confess to my mom about it but i was like....nah but eventually that urge to confess went away!!that disturbing video came up on my insta feed and i didn’t search it up so yeah why would i confess if i didn’t search it up....honestly twitter has some really weird vids so that’s why i deleted it cuz i don’t want those type of vids to pop up 😭
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I’ve had this same exact one!
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Glad I’m not the only one!
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I have zoophilia ocd, and it disturbs me a lot because of much I love animals. I remember that my earliest memory of experiencing my ocd was after watching a video of people uncovering a zoo sadism ring, and the chat logs has disturbed me so much. I remember how much anxiety I felt and my thoughts of “what if you’re attracted to animals too? Maybe you’re capable of something like that.” Ever since then I did mental compulsions like checking arousal, ruminating, and even avoiding my pets because I was so anxious. I had a horrible panic attack after someone had posted a video of someone having sex with a hamster on a discord server, and I still have a intrusive images from that. Therapy helps a lot for me. I’ve done a lot of exposures that have helped tons.
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I’ve also had this exact one!!!and i remember i was so disturbed but my mind keeps saying “oh you were aroused by it” like 😑 i hate my brain sometimes
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Was it of a dog licking a woman and she’s moaning ? BECAUSE I CANNOT GET THAT VIDEO OUT OF MY HEAD . & I fear I’d hurt my dogs the exact same way , I was avoiding them at first , and got over that compulsion but now I simply cannot break through the cycle , I was doing ok for two weeks & last night it flared & i got scared all over again
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I think I was young when I saw it , & I believe it was on twitter! & I didn’t think ANYTHING of it then, I really didn’t. & I had dogs then, but more recently I mistakenly looked up an illegal dog abuse website & all of this flared , I’m sleeping beside my dog in underwear , I’m peeing in front of her naked , walking past her when I shower . Its all been great help but the fear has recently flared
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- 22w
Idk if your still active but I also suffer with this. At one point when I was 13-14 (about 3-4 years ago) it got so bad to where I watched a video of an animal being aroused and was turned on by it. I don’t have any attraction to animals tho I think it’s awful and sick afterward I felt awful and haven’t felt that way again or done that again but I still feel like a zoophile even though I would never do or enjoy something like that. I also want to mention it’s not something I have to stop myself from doing I genuinely don’t want to but the fact that I did really disturbs me.
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- 24w
TW warning: ZOCD, real events, and animal neglect. I feel like if I'm nice to animals or think about having a pet in the future I'm being a hypocrite, one of the things i saw at 10-12 years old because of my porn addiction and exposure were horrible videos involving animals, and i had a kitten at 9 years old, i didn't know the responsibility of having a pet, yet i loved my cat very much and when we couldn't take it to the vet because we didn't have money, it came back with wounds, bleeding, i cried a lot and i regretted so much having been so inconsiderate and dumb to ask for a cat when we didn't have money or the appropiate place to keep it safe. My parents refused to take him to the vet or a shelter, and one day it ran away from home and never came back. I feel like i'll never be able to interact normally or have a pet without being a hypocrite. I'm horrible
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- 20w
I'm worried that I sexual assulted or r*ped my dog when I was 17 and I'm 18 now. This memory, has came up multiple and changes rapidly, it says that I was also saying very disturbing things to the dog, calling her good and weird disgusting things like that. I don't know if I can live with myself if this is true.
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- 20w
Someone please help me I’m having intrusive thoughts of hurting my pets and I’m really scared of myself and I want these thoughts to go away. Can someone please help me I’m scared and I don’t know if I’m a monster
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