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- 3y
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YES. and it makes you question everything. Do you also feel like you need to confess it to someone because you feel so guilty. Like I feel like I need to tell my mom because I feel so guilty and ashamed
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- 3y
when i remembered the memory i was so anxious and yes I did feel the need to confess to my mom about it but i was like....nah but eventually that urge to confess went away!!that disturbing video came up on my insta feed and i didn’t search it up so yeah why would i confess if i didn’t search it up....honestly twitter has some really weird vids so that’s why i deleted it cuz i don’t want those type of vids to pop up 😭
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I’ve had this same exact one!
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Glad I’m not the only one!
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I have zoophilia ocd, and it disturbs me a lot because of much I love animals. I remember that my earliest memory of experiencing my ocd was after watching a video of people uncovering a zoo sadism ring, and the chat logs has disturbed me so much. I remember how much anxiety I felt and my thoughts of “what if you’re attracted to animals too? Maybe you’re capable of something like that.” Ever since then I did mental compulsions like checking arousal, ruminating, and even avoiding my pets because I was so anxious. I had a horrible panic attack after someone had posted a video of someone having sex with a hamster on a discord server, and I still have a intrusive images from that. Therapy helps a lot for me. I’ve done a lot of exposures that have helped tons.
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- 3y
I’ve also had this exact one!!!and i remember i was so disturbed but my mind keeps saying “oh you were aroused by it” like 😑 i hate my brain sometimes
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- 3y
Was it of a dog licking a woman and she’s moaning ? BECAUSE I CANNOT GET THAT VIDEO OUT OF MY HEAD . & I fear I’d hurt my dogs the exact same way , I was avoiding them at first , and got over that compulsion but now I simply cannot break through the cycle , I was doing ok for two weeks & last night it flared & i got scared all over again
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- 3y
I think I was young when I saw it , & I believe it was on twitter! & I didn’t think ANYTHING of it then, I really didn’t. & I had dogs then, but more recently I mistakenly looked up an illegal dog abuse website & all of this flared , I’m sleeping beside my dog in underwear , I’m peeing in front of her naked , walking past her when I shower . Its all been great help but the fear has recently flared
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- 25w
Idk if your still active but I also suffer with this. At one point when I was 13-14 (about 3-4 years ago) it got so bad to where I watched a video of an animal being aroused and was turned on by it. I don’t have any attraction to animals tho I think it’s awful and sick afterward I felt awful and haven’t felt that way again or done that again but I still feel like a zoophile even though I would never do or enjoy something like that. I also want to mention it’s not something I have to stop myself from doing I genuinely don’t want to but the fact that I did really disturbs me.
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- 23w
I'm worried that I sexual assulted or r*ped my dog when I was 17 and I'm 18 now. This memory, has came up multiple and changes rapidly, it says that I was also saying very disturbing things to the dog, calling her good and weird disgusting things like that. I don't know if I can live with myself if this is true.
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- 16w
I posted about this a couple days ago, about a dog chewing a ball while laying in my lap and it was giving me a physical sensation down there that technically felt good because it was right there. I keep replaying the moment in my head as a compulsion and trying to figure it out and I won’t stop until it feels right. I feel like I would know 100% if I indulged in it and let it feel good so I shouldn’t even be questioning if I did do that bc idk if I did. I remember looking down at the dog and realizing that everytime he bit the ball and moved his forward is when it would feel good for me. And while I was noticing that, I can’t help but think back, was that me just recognizing or allowing it to happen or both??? What does that say about me if I allowed myself to indulge in the feeling.
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- 14w
(21+ ONLY: TRIGGER WARNING) I’ve been increasingly worried that I’m a zoophile (among other things) and that I’m attracted to my family dog. I love him and I take care of him—I take him out to poop and pee, I play with him, and I feed and water him. But I get nervous when I have to be around him for a long time—I get these thoughts and they just won’t stop. I’ll find myself looking at my dog’s privates and having these strange urges. I feel horrible—like I could’ve done something to him or touched him inappropriately and conveniently don’t remember. I don’t know what to do…
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