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YES. and it makes you question everything. Do you also feel like you need to confess it to someone because you feel so guilty. Like I feel like I need to tell my mom because I feel so guilty and ashamed
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when i remembered the memory i was so anxious and yes I did feel the need to confess to my mom about it but i was like....nah but eventually that urge to confess went away!!that disturbing video came up on my insta feed and i didn’t search it up so yeah why would i confess if i didn’t search it up....honestly twitter has some really weird vids so that’s why i deleted it cuz i don’t want those type of vids to pop up 😭
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I’ve had this same exact one!
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Glad I’m not the only one!
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I have zoophilia ocd, and it disturbs me a lot because of much I love animals. I remember that my earliest memory of experiencing my ocd was after watching a video of people uncovering a zoo sadism ring, and the chat logs has disturbed me so much. I remember how much anxiety I felt and my thoughts of “what if you’re attracted to animals too? Maybe you’re capable of something like that.” Ever since then I did mental compulsions like checking arousal, ruminating, and even avoiding my pets because I was so anxious. I had a horrible panic attack after someone had posted a video of someone having sex with a hamster on a discord server, and I still have a intrusive images from that. Therapy helps a lot for me. I’ve done a lot of exposures that have helped tons.
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I’ve also had this exact one!!!and i remember i was so disturbed but my mind keeps saying “oh you were aroused by it” like 😑 i hate my brain sometimes
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Was it of a dog licking a woman and she’s moaning ? BECAUSE I CANNOT GET THAT VIDEO OUT OF MY HEAD . & I fear I’d hurt my dogs the exact same way , I was avoiding them at first , and got over that compulsion but now I simply cannot break through the cycle , I was doing ok for two weeks & last night it flared & i got scared all over again
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I think I was young when I saw it , & I believe it was on twitter! & I didn’t think ANYTHING of it then, I really didn’t. & I had dogs then, but more recently I mistakenly looked up an illegal dog abuse website & all of this flared , I’m sleeping beside my dog in underwear , I’m peeing in front of her naked , walking past her when I shower . Its all been great help but the fear has recently flared
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Idk if your still active but I also suffer with this. At one point when I was 13-14 (about 3-4 years ago) it got so bad to where I watched a video of an animal being aroused and was turned on by it. I don’t have any attraction to animals tho I think it’s awful and sick afterward I felt awful and haven’t felt that way again or done that again but I still feel like a zoophile even though I would never do or enjoy something like that. I also want to mention it’s not something I have to stop myself from doing I genuinely don’t want to but the fact that I did really disturbs me.
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(21+ ONLY: TRIGGER WARNING) I’ve been increasingly worried that I’m a zoophile (among other things) and that I’m attracted to my family dog. I love him and I take care of him—I take him out to poop and pee, I play with him, and I feed and water him. But I get nervous when I have to be around him for a long time—I get these thoughts and they just won’t stop. I’ll find myself looking at my dog’s privates and having these strange urges. I feel horrible—like I could’ve done something to him or touched him inappropriately and conveniently don’t remember. I don’t know what to do…
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18+ so, i just had this memory pop back into my head after suppressing it and now I’m obsessing over it and cant suppress it, it feels so weird that i dont think i can even tell my therapist. so a few years ago, i was high, and laying in bed and my dog was laying in front of my face back to me and i kissed his back like mimicking making out, and dont get me wrong this is not a zocd concern it was not attraction im not worried that i touched him sexually im just really weirded out by that memory like someone gauge how weird and immoral that is for me and like i was not a kid, i was an adult its freaking me out like??? tf i do not know how i manage to suppress shit like this like i didnt think it was weird when i was high and i think i remember waking up spiraling about it and then decided to shut it down bcs i had what felt like bigger ocd shit fish to fry and it just popped back up and im spiraling
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so I’ve been seeking therapy for my OCD for a few years. The theme that I’ve been dealing with most recently is the fear of becoming a pedophile, which then has led to intrusive images of me doing things to kids.Which now is just causing me so much distress and 24/7 constant thought cycle. I am starting to not be able to tell the difference between thoughts that are wanted/ unwanted- the line has become some blurry and these things are starting to feel like someothing i want to do. My brain keeps telling me to just test these thoughts and the “maybe”or”i don’t know” isn’t working. This has become such a barrier because the second layer is that I’m afraid that if I just let the thoughts be there it’ll make me be OK with doing those things and the fear is what’s keeping me from actually doing something inappropriate. It’s also transitioned into intrusive thoughts and images of me doing something very disgusting to my dog and that when I’m cuddling with him I get the thoughts to just do it or try it to see if i am actually a p*do. it’s almost like the compulsion would be to do the inappropriate thing, even though I know it’s wrong just to see how it would make me feel. I feel like i can’t control these urges even though i’ve never acted on it. At any point i could just do it. I’ve never had these thoughts before up until about a year and a half ago when my friend‘s boyfriend got arrested for soliciting a minor then all these thoughts came to life.Has anyone experienced something like this and have any advice?
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