- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 7y
I absolutely hate this obsession. I constantly am hyper focused on how my mouth moves when I talk and specifically with certain letters like b, m, and p. I just hate the feeling and I try to say different words to avoid those uncomfortable feelings and I just feel so unbelievably worn out. I don’t want to be around people and talk to people but I have to for my job so I am constantly focused on my mouth. To the point where I say the wrong thing or (even today) run into walls?? I am completely zoned in on one thing and it is so painful because I fear the next time I have to talk to someone. I am normally pretty social so it makes living my life so hard and debilitating. I just don’t know where to turn anymore :( I can’t afford the type of therapy that I need. And idk where to even look. The therapist I have right now isn’t super specialized in this and wants to try biofeedback. It’s not helping me and I’m just wasting time becoming more miserable.
I don’t know the specific terms, but I definitely have body focused obsessions and compulsions. Both with things I can’t control. So my heart is a big one - obviously can’t control that. And my face is the other big one - which I can control but after years of people criticizing my facial expressions (or lack thereof) I can’t stop thinking about it when I’m around people
I focus all the time on my groin area and everything I feel, ocd makes it 10 times stronger. A touch, a tickle... to the point that my mind even creates sensations
Yes I have the same thing. It’s the worst!!!
I had bladder ocd in the past. I would worry about “what if I pee my pants?” And it sometimes caused my bladder to actually leak! I had to wear bladder control pads for a few years. It made it almost impossible to do anything and I was always so embarrassed and humiliated. I felt so alone. I was constantly trying to hold my urine, at times my bladder would hurt. It was HORRIBLE. But that one had actually gone away. Now sometimes I get sensorimotor ocd about my breathing not being right or that I just don’t feel right.
Hey Ashley! I’m going through something of the same, I urinate myself when going to the toilet which is odd and my ocd is 90% having to do with urine and poo impurity insecurity. Can you give me some tips on how you overcame this issue because peeing yourself is just something horrible as a 25 year old
I also constantly hold my urine and I’m a mess and can use whatever advice you have to offer ?
Hey there everyone, first I would like to say I am very grateful for every single one of you on this platform and it feels so much better knowing that I can be heard. I’ve been hyperaware of my swallowing for 1-2 month. I feel like I have so much saliva in my mouth and I have to swallow and swallow. I feel the urge to swallow even I don’t NOTHING in my mouth, so I just swallow air. This has been really overwhelming and I feel like I can be so easily latched to other body part of my part. For example, I was conscious about my blinking and breathing for a few days, and now I get so anxious when I heard a weird sound my ears make after each sentence I speak. Is this somatic ocd or health concern ocd? I am so helpless and having a hard time to shift my attention. Does anyone have any suggestions or just words of encouragement would really help me at this moment. I REALLY appreciate your help. 💗🙏 Thank you !
Hello, I’m new to this app. I’ve always had an anxious brain, and I’ve had coping mechanisms for as long as I can remember. When I was a kid, from as early as I could spell, until I was probably early teens, I would constantly write words in my head along to the beat of music. It’s such a vivid memory because I never stopped doing it. The word had to perfectly match up to the lyric and I loved that it kept my brain busy. I grew out of that, but felt like good context. My anxiety increased drastically around ages 17-19, and I began therapy. I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety and panic disorder, due to having a panic attack nearly every day at that time. I overcame that as well, and now the panic attacks are every now and then, but the anxiety is constant, and some recent symptoms have led me to believe I might have some form of OCD. Maybe not. I’m trying to understand myself and get better so I joined this app to make sense of things. Lately I’ve been having really intense intrusive thoughts. I’m really embarassed and they make me feel like a bad person. Thoughts pop in my head seemingly out of nowhere. It will be an image of me harming myself or someone else in a really bad way. (Trigger warning) for example the other day I couldn’t shake the image of me putting a knife through my own forehead, although it’s not something I want to do. Or I’ll imagine someone killing me. I imagine my loved ones dying often. The thoughts feel so out of my control it’s insane. I hate them. Another persistent issue that isn’t as new is replaying social scenarios. I’m a hairstylist so this one is difficult since I meet a bunch of new people every day. I obsess over how I act and if people like me. I will impulsively say things all the time and they will haunt me for weeks. I question even my closest friends and family who show their love. I find myself so angry and numb and like I have so much built up emotion and a busy mind always. While doing my job I spiral really badly if any little thing goes wrong and it’s embarassing. I know there’s more but I can’t think of it now. I just want to feel better and like I’m not constantly battling my mind.
Hello! I’m new here. Unfortunately I’m not able to afford a therapist but I’ve been doing a lot of research and I think a lot of my symptoms/thoughts align with OCD. I want to share some of what I experience and see if anyone else experiences the same and what resources helped you. I think I mostly experience contamination OCD. I’m constantly worried that something I do/touch is going to make me really sick and/or die. Especially with food, I’m constantly worried that I’ll accidentally have something on my hands when I eat, then I’ll touch the food and get that on the food, eat it and get sick. So I’ll wash my hands every time my hands touch any little tiny thing again and again before I eat, same with any forks/spoons, or I’ll even think I touched cleaner a few hours ago and I’ve washed my hands several times since then and I just washed them again but they still feel dirty so even if impractical I’ll use a fork and if my hands touch the part of the fork that touches the food then I can’t eat the food any longer or use that fork. Also at work I have these thoughts that I know are ridiculous but also give me very real anxiety. Like “if I don’t finish this order before that machine beeps its a sign I’m going to die” and then I have to rush to make sure I finish fast and then I’ll be like ok that’s so stressful I’m not going to think like that any more it’s ridiculous but then the thoughts keep coming back so I have to keep rushing. This is just a little tad bit of what I experience and I would love to hear from others as I haven’t met anyone else like me before. Thank you!
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