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hey:) i’m here for you. i know how hard it is. even with all the resources out there
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I hear you. I’ve got great support, but I’m still waiting to improve too. I don’t have any mind-blowing advice, just know you’re not alone.
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You got this, Muni ? Like I told you before, you seem really determined to get better and like the others said, you're doing everything to get there, so I'm sure you will!! Unfortunately it's a slow process :( what helped me once was to set a fixed date, like every beginning of a month, and lock back and see how I feel compared to the beginning of the month before. With such a big time span its sometimes easier to see the progress. Maybe there's not progress every time, but over time there will be! I'm so sorry you feel this way right now, I'm sending virtual hugs your way
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You can do this ♡
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Keep fighting muni ! You will get through this and you will have ur life back , just gotta keep at it. I was horrible at the beginning of the year but I finally found a med that works and my therapy kicks in now too. You will get there !
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Every word you wrote could have been me this week. And the. suddenly it was like I came out of a black cloud and could gain some perspective. I suppose my point is there will be more good days if you hang on.
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Oh wow. Still there some days. You do want to give up. A lot. But know you aren't alone in your feelings. Lots of us get it.
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If I ever get over this, if I ever get better, that would be my dream come true: I’ve had serious ocd since I was 16 yo., anxiety since childhood. I wanna live life: I can’t imagine myself being healthy enough to be able to go out for lunch, to go to the movies, to go live with my boyfriend, to be calm in my day to day life. I know you can’t do anything to help me, but I really needed to talk to someone.
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I can’t even begin to express my gratitude to you all. Thank you. This app is truly amazing, and has amazing people. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart
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