I don't think I've ever been THIS tense in my life. I feel like everything around me is collapsing. I'm grateful for my partner, but other than our relationship, everything is falling apart and I'm trying to have control over everything but at the same time disassociate by distracting myself because I feel I don't have any other options because it's so overwhelming. I'm NOT and angry person but I am just finding myself so ANGRY at everything and everyone because it's all too much and I hate how I can't just get shit done without over thinking every goddamn potential outcome. 

I feel your pain. Even taking the kids to school today felt like a skydive. But I did it anyway! Every little thing that was so elementary feels like a hurdle. But that's ocd. That's it getting itsteeth in. We need to keep fighting back! 