I can’t do this anymore. I can’t live with these thoughts. I feel like they’ll never go away. I don’t even know anymore if they’re my real thoughts or not. It really feels like it’s true. Maybe I’m just becoming closer to the truth everyday because it feels like it and I don’t even feel anxiety I feel nothing. Ocd has won, I feel like it has completely convinced me and I don’t know what to do because I genuinely can’t live like this. I feel like I’m just cursed what if I really am this way and I’ll have to be miserable forever

Its true that the intrusive thoughts will never go away completely. But how you react to them can be changed. OCD only wins if you give up. Find a therapist that understands OCDband specializes in ERP. I'm not going to lie to you. ERP is crazy hard and uncomfortable. But you CAN beat OCD. You don't have to keep living the way you are. ERP only works if you commit to it and give it your all. All you need tobdo is decide to fight back. Recovery is possible. But no one is going to come to you. If you want help, then you need to ask for it and seek it out. A good place to start is by scheduling a free call with NOCD. Theyvask you some basic questions about your symptoms and insurance. Then you get paired with a therapist. The first step is a 90 minute OCD assessment. At the end, you will get a diagnosis if you meet the criteria for OCD. Then you build your hierarchy and start learning ERP. Only you can decide if you want recovery. No one else can decide that for you. Treatment through NOCD may even be covered by your insurance. Mine is. www.treatmyocd.com