Hey there everyone- I’m new here but Ive got a question- I started experiencing SOOCD or HOCD exactly around last year, it hit me really hard and mainly came after my closest friend told me she had a boyfriend. Now I’ve always had this deep fear of being gay majority of my life mainly cause I found women more “pretty” even though pre-HOCD I was always attracted to men. Now all my friends are getting engaged, married and I feel such extreme panic cause not only do I feel like I don’t know who I am, but my HOCD convinces me I’m stressed cause I don’t want that type of path right now, even though I’ve always dreamed about marrying a man, now it’s always me battling thoughts that Ive been lying to myself, that it’s been “comphet”, which before I ever looked up comphet I didn’t even know it was a thing it only gave me 1000 other things to doubt and worry about. Anyways I feel so unlike myself. Me the person who was always able to obsess over boys and get excited just feels empty now.