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- 635d ago
Another thing I wanna add: Ive never questioned my label: I was straight and it felt right, lesbian love stories never interested me especially not romantically, being bi and other labels never occurred to me nor felt stressful I just didn’t care, even if I found a woman pretty or nice to look at as a child I never ever felt romantically that way, that was actually uninteresting to me. Ive remained this way up until I started with HOCD, with HOCD I have days where I don’t even worry about if I like women cause I don’t even care to entertain it, I am more scared that I don’t like men anymore, that the thing that used to make me feel giddy and excited just thinking about boys I liked now makes me feel numb and weirdly sad.
I have also always had that deep fear of being gay. Literally my entire life. Anything with gay content while I was growing up made me so anxious and uncomfortable. I also have never been “turned on” just by looking at a man. So my mind takes this and runs. I need touch, romantics, chemistry etc