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I have definitely been in your shoes before and even though I am pretty far along in my ocd recovery journey I still get those thoughts. This is pretty much textbook cognitive distortion caused by ocd and that means that 1) you can’t fight those thoughts because that is what gives them fuel. And 2) you have to just take some time to sit and let the thought happen, let your body create a fear response and then let it be, and in doing so you can convince your brain that the thought is not something to be afraid of. Hope this makes sense and good luck!
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Thank you! I needed to read that ❤️
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I used to listen to podcasts about true crime and I used to watch psychological horror and drama and staff but I'm afraid to watch or listen now because everytime i hear about a bad person like a person who raped, murdered, etc, I immediately compare them to myself even though I didn't hurt anyone in my life.
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I stopped watching true crime for the same reason. But avoidance is a compulsion. It is a huge one for me. It may relieve your anxiety in the short term, but it will make the intrusive thoughts worse and make your OCD even stronger. Been there done that. More times than I can count.
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No exactly and it's hard watching the shows and doing things that make you so anxious.
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Good point. I never thought of it as avoidance. Maybe I should try watching, it just makes me a little uneasy.
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It's such a vicious cycle, and one I relate to well. My mind immediately starts with the "look how heartless you are, you must be a narcissist like your bio dad" sorta shit. It's exhausting, like I 100% wish I could transfer that spiral into like cardio or something. At least I'd get something beneficial out of it aside from a sad walk to the pantry for emotional support snacks.
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I have the same thoughts about my dad! Just try to remember that you’re not your parents, and their faults make us stronger.
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@lh2000 100% agreed. I'm grateful my real dad is the way he is, as fucked up as it sounds. It gave me the tools to be self aware for when those thoughts come around. The anxiety still hurts but I try to ground myself by asking "would a person without empathy question if they have empathy and worry?"
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@Sound Lotus I used that exact same thought process and it really helped me “bad people don’t worry about being bad people.”.
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This is what I struggle with too. It's throws our statements. And as a compulsion before I even get a thought I'm like idk. And it's not helpful if I haven't even gotten the thought. It's always about horrible things like murder or just mean things.
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maybe a therapist can respond or anyone who relates and experiences this also?? im trying to make sense . ever since ocd started, specifically harm ocd and pocd, sexual themes ocd in general, my brain makes everything sexual or gross. or just makes inappropriate connections with quite literally anything. or any person I see I wonder if they are a p, or if they are “like me”, because im fully convinced at times that im some weird or bad person, and then when i see actual criminals etc i cant help but compare myself to them it’s so weird?????? or sometimes I feel like i cant judge a p because im no different than them?? idk its so weird. rn writing this ik im not a p like what im just struggling with really bad ocd and trauma I hope :( It’s just my brain distorts everything and then it makes me feel worse, like “ur an actual p or pervert because see??? ur brain is sexualizing everything?” hopefully this makes sense
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I shouldn’t have done this (trigger trigger trigger!!) So about a month ago..maybe I watched this video (as a compulsion to prove to myself) The video was called “interview with a p3d0” And basically it was what it says, I watched or more like listened to half of it…after I was disgusted by the person, but now all I can think of is every little thing I do, I feel as if tho I’m monitoring every thought/moment and feeling I have it’s torturous and I hate it..I feel disgusting, the person in the video has empathy and sympathy and had those feelings yk, I can’t explain it you’d have to watch the video yourself but please don’t it will ruin your journey…I feel more hopeless then before, my OCD is telling me so many things trying to convince me things that Ik aren’t true, I’m just really scared I don’t want to be that person I want to be a good cousin and person to my family, I’m sick of my head and myself, I’m so tired that sometimes I can’t even think straight, my head is always in pain and idek how to help myself..compulsions have been becoming more and more exhausting… I need advice or even someone to relate to, I understand I shouldn’t have done what I did but idk how to forget it.. I had made this post already but when someone replied I couldn’t see it for some reason so I’m uploading it again
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That's what OCD feels like. Especially the constant questioning and doubt and the more you do it, the more you doubt yourself and it ends up leaving you open for other 'attacks'. I left the house today with my mom to run errands and things were fine, like my intrusive thoughts weren't bothering me that much in the beginning though they're constant in the background. Then when we stopped to get a drink from this store before leaving, I got more anxious because there were lots of kids around (it's afternoon here and i guess school was coming out). Kids were walking around in school uniform and I just told myself to keep looking away because i knew that my intrusive thoughts were going to flare up. Obviously that just made it worse and I just wanted to run away and crawl into a hole or something. Then a few minutes passed and then my brain said what if you were leering at the kids or looking at them inappropriately. And then my brain kept telling me that I wanted to or must have filmed one of them even though it's not something I want to do and know deep down that I didn't do it and don't want to. Ever. I just felt so disgusted with myself, I had to stop myself from crying on the way home. I hate this disease and I hate that its made its home in my head.
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