I have decided to drop out of college now. It’s finally clear to me that it’s the only thing I can do now. I feel like such a failure tho but luckily I have the best and supportive parents that agree with my solution. I am going to lie to the people in my class and roommates about it, I just have to say I got sick or something because it’s so embarrassing to me. I suffer from depression, intense anxiety (hocd and social and generalized). I have personality problems and I look forward to go to a therapist and start recovery and start to be myself and healthy again, because it’s a very long time since I was myself and completely mentally healthy. What do you guys think about my decision? I struggle a lot with quitting college but I don’t think the program was for me anyways so that’s a good thing. I am 19 years old and I have many years to decide what I want to do, don’t I?

alexisrae1999

Date posted: 4y

I think you're doing what is best for you at the moment. When I was fresh out of highschool I had no idea what I wanted to do, so like you I picked a program that I did not like just to get it over with. And lime you, I ended up dropping out of it. I just graduated with two associate degrees with honors :) There is absolutely no shame in taking your time to figure things out. With a sound mind, it'll be so much easier for you to do so as well :) And yes, you're only 19. I wish I had someone telling me that I had sooo much time when struggling with choosing a career/major. There is no rush!

girlwithocd..

Date posted: 4y

Thank you!! You are so right, we have a lot of time, someone finish earlier than others. Now I have to take a break and do exactly what’s best for me.

Cmt211

Date posted: 4y

I think it’s a good decision for now and you can take time to get better, I think it actually shows strength of character to prioritise your health.

sandercohen

Date posted: 4y

I went to university (UK) whilst unknowingly struggling with what I now realise was OCD and I completely lost myself, if I could go back I would have done the exact same thing as you. Good on you for putting yourself first.

dlorenzen

Date posted: 4y

When I had just turned 19 I also dropped out. The thing about college is u have a lot of time to go back, your entire life actually. Lots of people like to imagine it going perfectly like 18-22 then I'm done, but it doesn't always go down that way. And it's the right move definitely if you've determined recovery and school to be too much at once, and that's normal lol, most people can hardly balance a min wage job w their education so jt makes sense u need a break.

girlwithocd..

Date posted: 4y

Thank you so much. I think it’s too much to keep up with school and do recovery as well. I have finally accepted that I have a bad mental health and that’s when I found out it’s right to come home and take a break.

maybe_maybenot

Date posted: 4y

Having a mental health issue arise IS becoming sick—you're not lying to anyone by saying illness is why you had to stop your education for the time being. Try to be gentler on yourself 💕 You're going through a rough patch and you're making decisions to be well again. That's really responsible and smart of you to do. 💕

BB94

Date posted: 4y

So I also dropped out of my master's program last month, but it was also for something I was never interested in even when I did my bachelor's. You know your circumstances/situation better than anyone else. Don't need to feel like a failure at all because hey maybe one day you'll feel good to go back. Maybe you'll find something better than college in the meantime. To speak for myself, I'll say it didn't improve much for me. I'm at one of my lowest points right now. But instead of the hours spent for school each single day, I have time for myself. I use this time to take walks outdoors, have tea outdoors, word searches, coloring books, and puzzles. Mental health hasn't improved as I stated earlier, but I have time for myself now. Time for yourself might help you?

girlwithocd..

Date posted: 4y

I have a lot of time for myself. I need time with my family and Get help. I have never had a therapist over a long period of time, which i think i need to get better. But how old are you and do you want to study again?❣️

BB94

Date posted: 4y

Oh that's great, time yourself and your hobbies feels great. Time with family is even greater. I'm glad you're reaching out for help because mental health is just as important. I turned 27 in Aug. I'm a nurse now. I was working on becoming NP.

girlwithocd..

Date posted: 4y

Okay Nice! How are you doing in life generally?

Givenup

Date posted: 21w

I have no one... no one...

For context, im going to college for 6 years (less than 2 years away to graduate college) to focus on fixing my GPA, volunteering, and MCAT studying... as well as graduating... My parents keep guilt tripping me and asking me questions like "did you know how much we've spent to keep you in college?" And telling me the amount they've spent on my college education... my mom keeps saying that "shes not trying to make me feel guilty, but it's a fact you have to accept..." I know they've spent a lot of money to help me... my mom claims she spent over 70k on me... and I know they're suffering... but them constantly telling me the same thing and saying things like I should drop out to focus on making money to save is honestly degrading my mental health... My mom is the only one who knows the full extent of how extremely horrible my extremely awful and terrible POCD real events when i was either 13 or 14 were... so it feels like im indebted to her for helping me throughout... but her constantly asking me these kinds of questions and then saying "im not trying to make you feel guilty" is counterintuitive... UPDATE: when I called my mom just now... crying about how much I l0athe myself every time she guilt trips me, she kept bringing up her own pain, and that I didnt keep my promises... to the point where I genuinely asked her if I delete myself, will she be happy... she at first compared me to other kids who graduated in four years, then asked if I thought I had suffered more than she has... and if i did, that I should "stop talking to her"... I genuinely cant take this anymore... I cant take this from her anymore... I cant take life anymore... she makes me feel like I shouldn't be here... I genuinely dont want to be here...

izzy murray

Date posted: 18w

Feeling stuck in my room

Hi everyone. I need someone to talk to right now. My parents won’t like to what I have to say and it is making me feel hopeless. I really want to have a life this year if examples in person school, doing a job, or doing something that will make friends. I don’t have anything. For the past 15 months I have been all alone in my room. My parents forced me to do online because I had ocd. And I have gotten a lot better over this past year. And I feel 100% confident to go to in person school. My parents said that I can’t. And that you can do a program and online school again. I said to myself that I will have a life this year. And I am trying to make that happen. I am begging my parents to let me have a life, but I just feel trapped in my room and in my head. I want to go out and live. I don’t know if I should leave or stay. But at the same token I want to be able to have a life and not be in my room, but then I don’t know if my parents are right or not. Someone please say something cause I think I am about to give up

Hannah K

Date posted: 18w

Right now I am feeling a lot of anxiety

I am feeling a lot of anxiety and fear around what I know and what I don’t know. I also just had some a French vanilla coffee so I think this made it worse. And I should have known better. I realize I am really uncomfortable about what is out of control to the point I am very scared and nervous and I don’t know what it is about. Every time I journal I feel a strong urge to through the journal away and get a new one, in the same way every choice and decision I make it is out of fear and uncomfortableness not because it is my actual decision. So now I feel like more than ever ocd is controlling my life even though I know that what it is and that it is not something to be afraid of but I stilll constantly doubt and judge myself. I officially got diagnosed I was not sure before but what is the first step to taking back control over your life and yourself? I am on the waiting list for therapy but also I wish I could go to therapy sooner but I want someone I know I will work well with and I don’t want to rush thing because I know I will not do well at making such a big step in my own because I will overthink it so I just want to get myself to a point where I can do important things like that for myself. With school coming up I am even more stressed and worried about making the right decisions. Any tips? I would appreciate it. Also can anyone relate to this confusion and this dilemma with making important dedication like getting help and going to the doctor? Any did it make it hard to navigate school?

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