I have decided to drop out of college now. It’s finally clear to me that it’s the only thing I can do now. I feel like such a failure tho but luckily I have the best and supportive parents that agree with my solution. I am going to lie to the people in my class and roommates about it, I just have to say I got sick or something because it’s so embarrassing to me. I suffer from depression, intense anxiety (hocd and social and generalized). I have personality problems and I look forward to go to a therapist and start recovery and start to be myself and healthy again, because it’s a very long time since I was myself and completely mentally healthy. What do you guys think about my decision? I struggle a lot with quitting college but I don’t think the program was for me anyways so that’s a good thing. I am 19 years old and I have many years to decide what I want to do, don’t I?

alexisrae1999

Date posted: 3y

I think you're doing what is best for you at the moment. When I was fresh out of highschool I had no idea what I wanted to do, so like you I picked a program that I did not like just to get it over with. And lime you, I ended up dropping out of it. I just graduated with two associate degrees with honors :) There is absolutely no shame in taking your time to figure things out. With a sound mind, it'll be so much easier for you to do so as well :) And yes, you're only 19. I wish I had someone telling me that I had sooo much time when struggling with choosing a career/major. There is no rush!

girlwithocd..

Date posted: 3y

Thank you!! You are so right, we have a lot of time, someone finish earlier than others. Now I have to take a break and do exactly what’s best for me.

Cmt211

Date posted: 3y

I think it’s a good decision for now and you can take time to get better, I think it actually shows strength of character to prioritise your health.

sandercohen

Date posted: 3y

I went to university (UK) whilst unknowingly struggling with what I now realise was OCD and I completely lost myself, if I could go back I would have done the exact same thing as you. Good on you for putting yourself first.

dlorenzen

Date posted: 3y

When I had just turned 19 I also dropped out. The thing about college is u have a lot of time to go back, your entire life actually. Lots of people like to imagine it going perfectly like 18-22 then I'm done, but it doesn't always go down that way. And it's the right move definitely if you've determined recovery and school to be too much at once, and that's normal lol, most people can hardly balance a min wage job w their education so jt makes sense u need a break.

girlwithocd..

Date posted: 3y

Thank you so much. I think it’s too much to keep up with school and do recovery as well. I have finally accepted that I have a bad mental health and that’s when I found out it’s right to come home and take a break.

maybe_maybenot

Date posted: 3y

Having a mental health issue arise IS becoming sick—you're not lying to anyone by saying illness is why you had to stop your education for the time being. Try to be gentler on yourself 💕 You're going through a rough patch and you're making decisions to be well again. That's really responsible and smart of you to do. 💕

BB94

Date posted: 3y

So I also dropped out of my master's program last month, but it was also for something I was never interested in even when I did my bachelor's. You know your circumstances/situation better than anyone else. Don't need to feel like a failure at all because hey maybe one day you'll feel good to go back. Maybe you'll find something better than college in the meantime. To speak for myself, I'll say it didn't improve much for me. I'm at one of my lowest points right now. But instead of the hours spent for school each single day, I have time for myself. I use this time to take walks outdoors, have tea outdoors, word searches, coloring books, and puzzles. Mental health hasn't improved as I stated earlier, but I have time for myself now. Time for yourself might help you?

girlwithocd..

Date posted: 3y

I have a lot of time for myself. I need time with my family and Get help. I have never had a therapist over a long period of time, which i think i need to get better. But how old are you and do you want to study again?❣️

BB94

Date posted: 3y

Oh that's great, time yourself and your hobbies feels great. Time with family is even greater. I'm glad you're reaching out for help because mental health is just as important. I turned 27 in Aug. I'm a nurse now. I was working on becoming NP.

girlwithocd..

Date posted: 3y

Okay Nice! How are you doing in life generally?

veinsoul

Date posted: 24w

in need of help

I don’t know what I can do. I guess this is more of a depression thing than OCD but who knows. I have been battling this ongoing war within myself for years now and it’s been affecting my academic performance. situation of mine right now: I haven’t done a lot of work for my classes this month and I feel like I’m going to fail the semester again. I don’t know what it is but I can never seem to begin any work. I know I am capable but why can’t I get myself to start? why has this been going on for so long? I don’t understand. I have a history of good grades back in high school before I turned 17. I don’t even know how to describe it. it’s like I’ve been paralyzed and cannot do any work. but I can somehow do offside tasks like pinterest boards or random youtube videos. if I get rid of those, what do I do? I end up sleeping. because I’m tired. I have a low vitamin D deficiency & have been trying to get energy. I’m at a loss. I also bought unnecessary stuff on sunday when I went out with my family. I bought some things for the kids and I ended up buying myself a dress and a few accessories. now I have to work extra to gain that money back doing uber eats because I need it asap. it’s like I don’t want to work, for now. my coworkers who are around my age don’t work as much & I think to myself, “wow, they must be getting in the work done” meanwhile I’m working 3 days a week (which isn’t much) and attending school. I feel like if I change my schedule again, I’ll ruin it for the rest of my driver coworkers. I’m in a lead position at work so having to put on a mask is quite tiring. there’s so much I want to say that I don’t think it will fit in this post. I have booked a mental health session with a school counselor. all I want at the moment is to have my own place and be in a better mental state to take care of my cats. they mean a lot to me but this stupid ass undiagnosed mental issue is getting in the way. sorry for the long rant. I am tired.

moomoo22

Date posted: 22w

pls reply if you have help

i am a freshman in college and i have always struggled with depression, anxiety, and OCD. i have never received help for my OCD despite being medicated for my other two issues. i have noticed that what most of my panic stems from is my OCD and more specifically my OCD around school. i haven’t been able to get myself up for class for multiple days and im starting to panic about everything im missing and think about every little thing i have to fix. i am so behind that it makes me want to panic and i feel like i cant fix this. i just want my mind to feel normal but it feels like my whole world is falling apart all because i am feeling stuck in school. please help me i just want to feel okay but i dont know how to. i have tried doing all the assignments i can do to catch up but it isn’t enough i still feel so panicked

nataliebug

Date posted: 19w

college and feeling left out

im seeing everyone getting accepted by their colleges and im having a really hard time not comparing myself. I feel like my pure ocd has taken up my life and I wish my mind let me believe that I could work hard enough for these universities that I wanted to apply to. I feel so much embarrassment and shame in myself for having to stay in my hometown while everyone goes away to college. I can’t blame everything on my ocd, im still having a hard time accepting that I have it, I just wish I was better

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