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I think you're doing what is best for you at the moment. When I was fresh out of highschool I had no idea what I wanted to do, so like you I picked a program that I did not like just to get it over with. And lime you, I ended up dropping out of it. I just graduated with two associate degrees with honors :) There is absolutely no shame in taking your time to figure things out. With a sound mind, it'll be so much easier for you to do so as well :) And yes, you're only 19. I wish I had someone telling me that I had sooo much time when struggling with choosing a career/major. There is no rush!
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Thank you!! You are so right, we have a lot of time, someone finish earlier than others. Now I have to take a break and do exactly what’s best for me.
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I think it’s a good decision for now and you can take time to get better, I think it actually shows strength of character to prioritise your health.
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I went to university (UK) whilst unknowingly struggling with what I now realise was OCD and I completely lost myself, if I could go back I would have done the exact same thing as you. Good on you for putting yourself first.
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When I had just turned 19 I also dropped out. The thing about college is u have a lot of time to go back, your entire life actually. Lots of people like to imagine it going perfectly like 18-22 then I'm done, but it doesn't always go down that way. And it's the right move definitely if you've determined recovery and school to be too much at once, and that's normal lol, most people can hardly balance a min wage job w their education so jt makes sense u need a break.
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Thank you so much. I think it’s too much to keep up with school and do recovery as well. I have finally accepted that I have a bad mental health and that’s when I found out it’s right to come home and take a break.
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Having a mental health issue arise IS becoming sick—you're not lying to anyone by saying illness is why you had to stop your education for the time being. Try to be gentler on yourself 💕 You're going through a rough patch and you're making decisions to be well again. That's really responsible and smart of you to do. 💕
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So I also dropped out of my master's program last month, but it was also for something I was never interested in even when I did my bachelor's. You know your circumstances/situation better than anyone else. Don't need to feel like a failure at all because hey maybe one day you'll feel good to go back. Maybe you'll find something better than college in the meantime. To speak for myself, I'll say it didn't improve much for me. I'm at one of my lowest points right now. But instead of the hours spent for school each single day, I have time for myself. I use this time to take walks outdoors, have tea outdoors, word searches, coloring books, and puzzles. Mental health hasn't improved as I stated earlier, but I have time for myself now. Time for yourself might help you?
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I have a lot of time for myself. I need time with my family and Get help. I have never had a therapist over a long period of time, which i think i need to get better. But how old are you and do you want to study again?❣️
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Oh that's great, time yourself and your hobbies feels great. Time with family is even greater. I'm glad you're reaching out for help because mental health is just as important. I turned 27 in Aug. I'm a nurse now. I was working on becoming NP.
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Okay Nice! How are you doing in life generally?
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Sorry for the long post but I really need to vent. It’s really not a good period. It hasn’t been for a year now. There have been highs and lows, but the truth is I never addressed my problems, never tried to solve them but just pretended they weren’t there. I reached my lowest point this time last year, my OCD had never been worse, I was extremely burnt-out and couldn’t study anymore. And since then, I haven’t been able to study. Everytime I try I get a panic attack. OCD gets better then it gets worse. I probably have ADHD as well, and my parents probably still believe I’m making it all up. They tell me to “try harder” but I really, really can’t, and I’ve tried. And let’s add to all this all the people who have broken my heart, both exes and friends; and they just go on with their lives like they didn’t break me. I also had to quit my job (where they treated me like crap) and had to listen to them tell me that I’m an egoistic person and other awful things I will not say. Yeah, this last year has been the worst. I have come to the point where I can’t pretend anymore. I can’t pretend everything is fine. I’ve come to the point where I can’t leave the house without having panic attacks and fearing I’m going to die. This Monday I have my first appointment with a therapist. I’m a pessimist person usually but this time I feel hopeful. Maybe because I think it can’t get worse than this.
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I had avoided a lot with school specifically, but I did do it in other areas of life as well. School for some reason has been the biggest trigger that sends me into avoidance and it has been for the longest time. Does anybody relate? If so, what did you do to help besides therapy? In high school I used to sit in the bathroom stalls for hours so I could avoid going to classes. I was struggling to keep up because my OCD makes me perfect my school work so much so to the point where I’d never turn it in because I’d never be satisfied with what I’d produce. I’d get so incredibly frustrated with myself and the fact that I could never meet my own standards, never mind the rubrics given. I took ages analyzing all my writing, all my answers, all my google slides and I burnt myself out. So I stopped trying. I stopped turning in work because I’d never be satisfied. I’d cry because I felt I wasn’t good enough. Then I’d be missing assignments, getting them done but not submitting them because I was too ashamed. So, I avoided classes because I’d be in trouble or be called out for not getting anything done. Unfortunately this habit bled into my first year of college last year, and OCD coupled up with depression, made going to the dining hall and attending classes even worse. So I avoided it all together. It’s so hard being a freshman in college, so so hard. I unfortunately failed out of that school but I tried to medically withdraw either semester. No, I wasn’t partying, or drinking or smoking or hanging with the wrong people. I was a college freshman struggling with ocd and depression. I’m trying to not make excuses for myself either because I’m well aware this is my fault and I’m trying to reverse it now at community college. Right now I’m trying to get those Fs turned into Ws from my old school so I can fix my gpa. I want to transfer, I want to be a forensic psychologist, I want to be independent, I want to be ok. It’s gonna take me so long to transfer from community college but that’s on me. I’m willing to put in the work. I’m so embarassed, please help me.
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Basically, I've kept a secret from my family, specifically parents, for a couple of years now. This isn't something I'm proud of. It just sort of happened, and then I stupidly kept digging a deeper hole, fearing how they'd react. But tonight, my mom and I were talking, and she brought up how a few years back, she'd stopped talking to my aunt (for about a year) after they got into a disagreement/argument. Long story short, my aunt lied about a decision she'd made due to the fear of how her parents would react. The only person who knew the truth was my mom. My mom said she didn't like how my aunt was hiding this from the rest of the family because it felt like "manipulating their reactions," in a way. My aunt's since told the rest of the family, and everything ended up okay. They talk all the time now. But this conversation with my mom really hit me. It's embarrassing to admit, but there were these online courses I was supposed to be taking. But I fell behind due to no motivation and probably no self-discipline. And initially, the lie I told was small. I planned to catch up, so I didn't see the issue. But then I could never get through the lessons. I couldn't pay attention, I'd space out, go on my phone, get distracted, or fall asleep. I don't know if it's just laziness or lack of motivation. I'd been really depressed back then. But still, I've barely gotten through any of it. Out of guilt, fear, or shame, I kept building onto this lie that I was getting through the coursework. But I wasn't. I've carried all this guilt, yet I've never worked up the courage to be honest because I feel like I'd lose their trust forever, or they'd use it against me. And part of me thinks they'd have a right to react that way. I feel selfish for keeping this to myself. For lying and building onto the lie continuously over the last couple of years. I'm so ashamed, but I kept telling myself that I'd bounce back, but I just never did. I needed help, but I was too afraid to reach out for it. I just really need advice, I guess. Despite all of this, I really hate lying. It feels icky, and it only ever exacerbates things. I've been so open with my parents about everything except this. And I don't want that. I know I need to be honest with them, but I don't know how. I'm still afraid, but continuing to hide this is worse. I love my parents. I'm just terrified of disappointing them, or them losing all trust in me. I think my mom using the word, "manipulating," while describing my aunts situation and the reason for keeping her secret really sent my mind spiraling with all these terrible "what ifs" on how my parents might react. I feel terrible, and I've felt guilty for a long time, but... Yeah, I don't know. I'd appreciate advice, or just... thoughts. I don't know at this point. I'll take anything 😭🙏🏻 I'm thinking about telling my psychiatrist about all of this when I next see her, if anything.
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