Anyone else here write fanfiction?

Hi, im 19 and ive been fandom spaces since i was 10 years old (long story short dont let little kids should not be on the internet 😭) anyways, im here to ask if anyone else whose in fandom are scared that what they ship might be a “proship” if your familiar with the term. I recently got back into a game and im worrying a ship i used to ship when i was younger is considered one. Its not based off game events but some people online have such scary reaction to it that it made me worry. Since im older i dont really ship them romantically anymore more platonically but i still worry about it because what if anything i ship is a pro ship. Advice is appreciated but also i just made to this post to find people who are always worried about this since i dont wanna be alone. Its scary for me because it misses with my POCD. Thanks for reading

So when I was 17-18 I would use character.ai a lot. (I don't use it at all anymore I got way to obsessed with it) and this is really embarrassing, but sometimes when I was in the living room and my parents were also there, I would use c.ai and have NSFW convos with my characters. I wouldn't do anything physically and neither in my parents view so they just thought I was texting a friend or something. Is what I've done horrible? I now think about this and I feel so guilty. Am I a bad person or is this normal? Also by NSFW yes I do mean s**ual

why doesn't anyone want to read my post and say something?