- Username
- Travdart
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Ocd themes shift all the time. Ocd is literally just an intrusive thought you find threatening, react to, get anxious about, seek reassurance and the cycle continues. So yes, I’ve had ocd about health. It’s no different than ocd about other things I’ve fixated on in life. Fundamentally it’s about having a thought and feeling you judge as scary bad etc. I wouldn’t take the health ocd too seriously. If it wasn’t health it’ll be something else! Once you see that pattern you won’t take those thoughts so seriously.
It’s my main theme ;) I’m obsessed with my heart and with dying suddenly. I focus on any stupid sensation I can feel and it’s hard for me not to think I’m dying, and fast. I compulsively check my pulse and the web for reassurance. I ask people I love about it, too. I avoid going outside of my home because if I get the thoughts or sensations, my anxiety skyrockets. I’m doing ERP now. I think it’s the only thing that works (along with maybe ACT and being mindful, retraining the way you see yourself and the world etc)
Its rough .Its like I'm scared to live ya know ?
( i should note I had the brain aneurysm worry before too)
Thank you so much man ! I'm freaking out , it sucks.
Oh, and I fully agree with Scottyboy. Most of the experts agree that “it’s not about the content”, or the theme.
Thank yall so much :)
I have health OCD pretty bad too, for a long time. Or... I did. Now I’m just kinda hoping I don’t have to go on anymore at all.
Does anybody have OCD about being depressed, even though you’re not? Like you’re scared of being depressed?
I just can’t help it. And you would think I’d be able to stop considering how much worse it makes me feel. I have Pains that come and go in my head. They are not stabbing that are just there. Sometimes they last all days sometimes they last 1 second and come and go throughout the day. The last few days oven been scared of brain tumors. So i looked it up again. And it says less than 1% of population develop cancerous tumors. However then i got reading about aneurysms. And it says that most people die within the first 25 minutes after a ruptured aneurysm. What the heck?!! What if i secretly have one? It says that aneurysm headaches are stabbing worst pain you could ever feel which my headaches are not. But what if i secretly have an aneurysm. It says they are caused by High blood pressure. Which i tend to have every time i go to Doctors ( i thought it was nerves, anxiety, being obese). What if i just wake up i. The middle of a night with a headache that brings me to my knees and it’s a ruptured aneurysm?? I’m more scared about this than a brain tumor. What am i doing to myself? Please help 😭😭😭
I’m trying so hard not to post on here because i know it’s a compulsion. However I’m just so beyond scared. And this is health related and i know most of you are going to say you need to see a doctor or something along those lines but I’m just wondering If others have experienced anything like this and how to overcome it. I’m so beyond scared of having a brain tumor. Like it’s taking over my life. I’m scared to death of having a seizure because i know seizing is apart of brain tumors. I honestly don’t know what to do at this point. I keep feeling pains and sensations in my head particularly on one side. And because i know that brain tumor pain is normally localized in one spot i am freaking out. My mind keeps telling me “what if you are forgetful” so i keeps repeating my name, where i work, families names, etc to make sure I’m not in confusion and forgetting things. My eyes keep twitching, i am anxious 24:7. And normally being anxious would make me feel better in a way but now I’m scared to be anxious because anxiety could be a symptom of an underlying brain tumor. I don’t know what to do. I’m to scared of going to the doctors. What if they tell me i actually do have a tumor. Would i want to catch it early, of course i would but i am wayy to scared. These pains in my head are so beyond scary. The only thing making me feel somewhat okay is the fact that they come an go (and sometimes all over head as opposed to one spot) Like this morning i was fine with no pains but now they are here and I’m sick to my stomach. I’m also scared of feeling any nausea or stomach cramps because i know that vomiting is a sign of a tumor. And This morning i woke up with intense intense anxiety and i literally had a vision of me in the hospital getting a tumor removed. And it was beyond scary 😭😭😭
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