Every time I feel “normal,” I obsess over it. “How am I feeling normal if I truly have OCD? I mustn’t have OCD.” It’s so annoying to constantly invalidate myself. In reality, I felt okay because I got a full night of sleep. I felt okay because I was hydrated. I felt okay because I journaled and let my thoughts just be thoughts. Mental illness and healing from it is not linear. Some days—some hours, even—are good, some are bad, some are just okay. I really need to work on just letting myself be. I don’t need to try to constantly psychoanalyze myself, no matter how strongly I feel I have to. I can be self aware without picking apart my every thought and feeling. Being present is enough. I am enough. You are too. Thanks for listening :)

Anonemuse

Date posted: 4y

You have all the right ideas here! Healing is definitely non-linear, I had that realization myself recently. What matters is to do what we value in the present and be the best we can :)

anonymoose

Date posted: 4y

I’m glad you made the same realization! I totally agree that that’s what matters

kiraqueen

Date posted: 4y

I feel the same way, especially when I feel normal I obsess about the fact that I don’t have OCD and I look for obsessive thoughts in my mind.Then I look for OCD symptoms in order to understand if I really have it or not, that’s like a loop.

anonymoose

Date posted: 4y

Yep. A big ol’ spiral of doubt. I hope you find relief soon, friend!

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

I can relate. Thanks for sharing. It's encouraging to me

anonymoose

Date posted: 4y

I am so happy to know that you feel encouraged!! You truly aren’t alone <3

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

Good to know

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