Another thing to add here- relationships aren't all about "butterflies." I think part of the disorder is that butterflies fade after the honeymoon phase for everyone, but people like us take that as a sign of uncertainty and get uncomfortable with it. Remember that love is a choice you make, not just something you feel. There are gonna be times you don't have OCD symptoms and you can't stand your partner, lol. This is life. Don't give up.