Magzzz
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- 3y
SunflowerSunflower
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- 3y
There is hope, because I can promise you it gets so much better, start accepting uncertainty, that saved me
JustmesadlyJustmesadly
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- 3y
There’s Always hopeb
GodsgoodGodsgood
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- 3y
I understand how hard these things can be. God is here for us and He’s near to us in our struggles especially.
Drew777Drew777
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- 3y
Hi again Just Breathe. I'm sorry you're having a bad night... :( I can relate with Sunflower though on everything she said, it really does get SOOO much better. I used to be a wreck back in high school, and I still have my bad days even now, but my OCD is nothing like how it was before. You have to learn to accept uncertainty, and you have to learn to ignore the OCD thoughts that are in your mind, once you do that you will eventually forget about them and you won't even notice them anymore. Some intrusive thoughts will still work there way into your mind from time to time, but that doesn't ever mean you've lost. The fact that you're still here means that you have already won! I feel bad because I feel like I'm not helping much, or that I'm just reiterating the same things I told you the other night, but there really is hope friend, please don't give up. You CAN and WILL learn how to live life with your OCD, it just won't happen over night, it takes time. Stay hopeful, I know it's easier said than done, but having hope for tomorrow is so important. May God bring you peace tonight friend. Feel free to comment back though, I'll reply to you. (unless I fall asleep, but I'm sorry if I do) I'll continue praying for you!
MagzzzMagzzz
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- 3y
Thank you so so much for responding again. You have been so helpful and I truly appreciate the kind words. I pray and pray to God that I get better and that others do to. I just feel so hopeless and especially unworthy sometimes. It just feels like giving up is my only option to end the pain. I feel so angry and bitter towards myself maybe I am being a little to hard on myself. But anyways thank you very much I appreciate it!
Drew777Drew777
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- 3y
@Just Breathe ❤️ I used to feel the same way, that giving up was my only option, but I'm so glad now that I didn't give up back then. One of the most difficult nights for me that I remember from like 7 or 8 years ago (back kind of when I first started experiencing OCD) was when I just could not go to sleep until I performed my compulsion, but my compulsion was time consuming and I just wanted to go to sleep. It basically felt like my breaking point because I just remember sitting at the foot of my bed and just crying for 10 minutes straight, but afterward even though just crying and releasing my sadness helped it still wasn't enough. So, unfortunately I did perform my compulsion that night. BUT, the reason I'm saying all of this is to tell you how much I've grown since then. I haven't been that guy who cried at the foot of his bed for a long time, back then I never thought it would get better, I thought there was no hope, but I'm so glad to be able to say now that there IS hope! God has helped me through all of this so much more than I ever could've imagined back then. I'm so glad to be alive and be on this amazing journey through life! And I know I don't really know you Just Breathe, but I'm so glad you're alive and on this journey through life too! :) We can all face the good and the bad in life together, we will all have moments where we are happy about something good that happened in life like a birthday party or graduating, but there will also be moments where we are sad and struggling with something in life like being sick or failing a test in school. The point is there are highs and lows through life, but hopefully as life goes on we will learn to be happy even in the sad moments. It's a difficult way to imagine viewing life, even I can't fully imagine it, but I want to learn to be happy and content with life no matter what I'm facing. Of course I'll still cry at times and be sad, but hopefully I can still smile after the sad moment is over and feel happiness in my heart. I kind of said way more than I planned to, but I'm sorry for rambling for so long. I'm just glad I can do my best to help encourage others, and that others do the same for me too. :)
MagzzzMagzzz
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- 3y
@Drew777 This is very inspiring and I will definitely keep it in mind. Just knowing I’m not alone is so helpful. Thank you 🙏🏻
Lms526Lms526
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- 3y
ERP really helps.
madshammadsham
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- 3y
My therapist makes me sit in discomfort. It sucks, but it actually works. I have to accept that there are thoughts that are going to drive me insane and try my hardest not to act on them: look things up on the internet, seek reassurance, etc. wait one second, then 2. See if you can make it to one minute: maybe 5 minutes?
MagzzzMagzzz
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- 3y
I will definitely try that thank you! Definitely easier said than done though
madshammadsham
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- 3y
@Just Breathe ❤️ I agree. I have a thing with my eyes, I have a constant fear that I’ll go blind or get something in my eyes. It’s gotten so bad that I’ll leave what I’m doing just to check my eyes/glasses over and over and over again. The only thing that helps is the waiting it out tactic.
MagzzzMagzzz
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- 3y
@madsham Oh I see. Starve the ocd then eventually it will get better, correct?
Lms526Lms526
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- 3y
Yeah...its hard as he'll. Especially when your anxiety is going completely crazy. I did an exposure related to harm OCD. The exposure was to watch a movie in 5 minute intervals. The first 5 minutes were bad. The second 10 was even worse. I remember saying to my counselor "Who knew 5 minutes could feel like an eternity?" But after doing a total of five 5 min segments, I was able to watch the movie with no anxiety. ERP literally retrains your brain.
MagzzzMagzzz
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- 3y
@Lms526 Wow that’s great. I just have a really hard time with erp because I struggle with pocd and I think hocd too so it’s been rough
kemmakemma
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- 2y
I’m super fearful of losing my eyes.. I’m obsessive about getting anything in them
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