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Relax and breathe you’re safe. You don’t make your thought go away because it will come back. You’re fighting something that doesn’t exist and it’s not real. Your thought is just a thought it’s not reality. The moment you’re trying to defeat something that’s not real you lose. You’re having a mental diarrhea. You don’t do anything at this time.
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I’m just terrified and I’m really in my head right now. I’m just exhausted and I want answers and I need help. I’m scared
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@Anonymous🤷🏽♀️ You will never get any answers It’s actually good not to know
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@DADO So I should just stay home and try to go in about my day? Yesterday was really hard and I feel like today might be too. Especially since I keep tossing and turning with fears of my actions and my intrusive thoughts
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@Anonymous🤷🏽♀️ Go about your day and enjoy yourself today because you deserve it. Keep yourself busy and do something nice . Go have FUN.
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Our goal isnt to make the thoughts go away. Its about learning to manage the thoughts in a new way. The more you struggle with the thoughts, the more they will hurt you. You have to learn that thoughts arent dangerous, they can be uncomfortable but not dangerous. Seek help, there is hope for you too.
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Do you think I should do that? Go to the mental hospital because it’s super bad and I’m afraid of myself. I’m awake and everyone is asleep and I’m scared I might do something. I thought I had it under control but I think I’m traumatized from last night. I just want to leave my house
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Everyone has in intrusive thoughts. The thought itself is not the problem. The problem is how we react to them. We give intrusive thoughts more weight and meaning than they deserve. You need to find a therapist who specializes in ERP and understands OCD. Doing ERP is terrifying, but it really does help. I have both harm and suicide OCD. So I know how terrifying these types of thoughts can be. But recovery is possible. When I had my 90 minute assessment with my therapist, I was terrified to tell her about some of the thoughts that I had. I thought for sure she would have me involuntarily committed to the hospital or that she would call the police on me. A therapist who understands OCD will not bat an eye at anything you say. They have heard it all before. They will recognize the difference between an intrusive thought and true intention. They are NOT the same thing. I received this in my email yesterday. I hope it helps you as much as it did me. https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/how-to-tell-a-therapist-your-scariest-thoughts?src=email_%5BClone%5D%20OnlinedERP_vs_InPerson_091021
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I got a therapist through here and I’m just waiting to start ERP but I think I did too much research and I convinced myself I’m something I’m not and I’m freaking out. My intrusive thoughts come as commands most of the time and it scares me. I feel like I just want to get the help already because I don’t know how much more longer I can hold on for.
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Ok first of all how old are you? If you are an adult you can leave whenever you want unless you tell them you are suicidal or homicial with a plan and intent. And if you are a minor, you can’t leave when you want but if you are not suicidal or homicial they won’t keep you, they’ll just keep you for an average stay. And nobody gets put in a psych ward for life for having OCD. You usually stay like 2 weeks. Second, this is how you stop https://drmichaeljgreenberg.com/how-to-stop-ruminating/
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I’m 22 years old and scared. I just want to stay home but I have two jobs and I can’t afford to miss both. It’s just so hard because my mental health is really bad and everyone keeps telling me I seem better when I’m not. I feel like I’m getting worse and everyday feels like it’s getting harder
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@Anonymous🤷🏽♀️ Ok so since you are 22 you can leave any treatment center at anytime unless you plan to hurt yourself or someone else. I know it’s hard with work, I totally get it, but your recovery has to come first. Are you at least doing weekly therapy with an OCD specialist and meds? If so can you increase your sessions?
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@Anonymous🤷🏽♀️ Also look into the free support groups on here.
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Staff in mental hospital are very rude. I witnessed violence and things that made my ocd worse. They could not help me. Coffee is not allowed plus there are people running around, some people yelling and laughing loud., some people hallucinating walking around fighting and arguing with the wall , one guy pretending to be a helicopter running around the hallway. After lunch there is something called “ Quiet Time” where everyone has to go to their room for mandatory 1hour nap time. I shared room with guy that was hearing voices . They removed me from that room told me it’s not safe to stay there because of him. If you don’t take your medication when they give you , you will never get out. It was just horrible experience for me. I would never check myself in again.
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Wow wtf???? I’ve never had that experience. But if you have OCD it’s best to go to an inpatient OCD center rather than a psych ward.
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Omg that sound me terrible I’m sorry you had to experience something like that :((
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@Anonymous You’ve been to inpatient treatment?
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@Anonymous🤷🏽♀️ I have 4 times but not for OCD.
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I’m having a very bad evening with my intrusive thoughts. I was doing really good dealing with them but tonight one hit me hard. I’ve been having a lot of different intrusive thoughts but I’ll have one occasionally about hurting my mom or my dog who I love and they’re the only family I have in my life. They’re my world. I was helping my mom put away the dishes and I had the big kitchen knife in my hand and my intrusive thought was you could stab your mom. And then my brain said I had a twitch in my hand and that meant I wanted to do it. Let me just say that I wouldn’t hurt a fly. I actually caught a fly in a glass and put it outside instead of killing it this evening before this intrusive thought happened. I’m such a gentle and compassionate and caring person and these thoughts instantly cause me to have a panic attack. And I have no one to talk to them about. I know they’re hard for my mom to hear and I don’t want to be any more of a burden than I already am. I do desperately want to tell her and have her reassure me that I’m not crazy or a psycho. Then my thoughts wander to if your hand did flinch could you be a psychopath. Is hurting someone in you. I know it’s not but I feel like my mind is out to get me and hurt me. I’m working so hard and I thought I was doing so good but I need to know why I have these thoughts. They’re not ok. I need someone to help me make sense of why. I know we aren’t supposed to ruminate but I shouldn’t have thoughts like this about people I love and care about the most in the world.
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This might contain triggering content, but I'm also wondering if others have dealt with this similar thought, and if so, how to deal with it? Overall, I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm able to eat again, which I hadn't been able to do because of how much anxiety I'd been experiencing. I'm spending time around loved ones and not just rotting in my room, and I've been able to wake up without immediately being bombarded by intrusive thoughts. When things first got really bad, I'd wake my mom up every night for reassurance, but I haven't done that in a while either. I'm really proud of myself, but there's still this nagging thought in my mind... While looking through others posts on here, hoping to find advice that'd fit my situation, I ended up making things worse. Someone mentioned how they had a fear that they'd purposely search for illegal content (related to POCD). I panicked, and "what ifs" flooded my thoughts. "What if the intrusive thoughts affect who I am as a person, and I do that?" I'm terrified that I'll search for those things, which I know means I wouldn't do it. But then, another person on here said they'd actually looked for those things, and that freaked me out even more. Does that mean it's possible for that to happen to me? I don't want to do that, but I keep having intrusive thoughts surrounding it. I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm just... stuck. I don't know what to do. I've spoken with other people who have the same fears, but how do I manage this? It's not something I've even thought about before seeing those posts. I've been practicing accepting the uncertainty, but I'm really struggling with this one. I hate this. This morning, I woke up, and the intrusive thoughts were back. It's just disheartening.
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I’m sharing this bc I need advice or even support from anyone who can relate. If you can’t relate and don’t think you’ll say anything helpful or kind pls don’t comment anything… I’ve been struggling with somethings that’s making me question myself. There has been moments while self pleasuring when I get intrusive thoughts, in those moments it feels like I’m enjoying or even self pleasuring myself bc of the thought. Right after I immediately have an anxiety attack and my HEART drops bc it feels terrible I feel like a disgusting monster :( ppl have told me I haven’t done a bad bc of how intense my guilt and panic are but I keep thinking that MAYBE I made a horrible decision in the moment and the guilt is just realising that it’s just wrong this doesn’t make sense to me because I’ve always told myself that I would never act on this in 1 million years and I’ve been known that these things are wrong so I’m just like constantly questioning myself these feelings and exact same situation has happened two times already I even promised myself that I wouldn’t act on anything beforehand and yeah, I still felt like I did act on my thought during my alone time I’m genuinely convinced that I’m a horrible and it’s even got into the point where I don’t wanna be here anymore and I don’t even think this is my OCD :( tbh
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