When all of this first started I was really afraid. And I was able to distinguish that I was not my thoughts and that I could never do that but now with all the over thinking. I convinced myself that I am these things some how. I feel like now I don’t know anything anymore. Everyone on here says they know they wouldn’t do it but I can’t even say that. Sometimes if I think about it and it actually happening I feel sick but there’s no anxiety. I also feel like no one has the same thoughts as me. I always go back and forth in my head and I can’t tell if it’s me or the other part in my brain telling me these things. I’m just scared and feel like I should be put away forever. I don’t think it’s ocd anymore and I accepted it. But when I think about accepting I get sick to my stomach and cry. It’s just hard. I don’t know myself anymore and I just want to be alone and be away from everyone

This is OCD at its best work. I feel this way too. Like I get so many themes and all so disturbing. I ruminate about small things and big things. Like the thoughts are always going to make you feel like an outcast. Like you are doing something wrong and are going to do something wrong. The acceptance is of having OCD and it will try everything in it's power to convince you that you are what it says and you need to ask it how to get out. None of it is true. The anxiety will make you feel like it's all true. And when there is no anxiety then it's like omg have I actually become this have I really come to my true light of self with is horrible. No you just accepting it's a possibility. Not that you will actually do it

I feel like with me I just want quick answers and this is all new to me and I don’t know how to cope. I keep seeing it as if I am or if I’m not going to hurt someone. And I feel like that’s what’s going to lead me to my down fall and I don’t know how to accept it’s a possibility

@Anonymous🤷🏽‍♀️ No yea it's the hardest thing. It's hard for me to accept a lot too. But we definitely got this. It's really our brains accepting the possibilities that are endless. Wanted to make sure we have never done, are doing, or will do anything bad. The anxiety is special effects that it throws at you. It feels real. Accepting you are capable like any other person of doing bad things or hurting someone is possible.