When all of this first started I was really afraid. And I was able to distinguish that I was not my thoughts and that I could never do that but now with all the over thinking. I convinced myself that I am these things some how. I feel like now I don’t know anything anymore. Everyone on here says they know they wouldn’t do it but I can’t even say that. Sometimes if I think about it and it actually happening I feel sick but there’s no anxiety. I also feel like no one has the same thoughts as me. I always go back and forth in my head and I can’t tell if it’s me or the other part in my brain telling me these things. I’m just scared and feel like I should be put away forever. I don’t think it’s ocd anymore and I accepted it. But when I think about accepting I get sick to my stomach and cry. It’s just hard. I don’t know myself anymore and I just want to be alone and be away from everyone