I’m so scared that I might be misdiagnosed.. what if I was lying to my therapist or something??? Like I’m so freaked out.

(21+ ONLY: TRIGGER WARNING) I have therapy today and I’m nervous. I just started going to therapy and I really like my therapist. She talked to me about doing ERP and I’m really nervous about it. I’m scared to tell her the extent of my OCD, and my themes. I’m scared to tell her about my false memory OCD, because I’m scared that what I did was real and I’m just excusing it as false memory, although I have no memory of it. I’m scared that I am truly a monster and I’m using OCD as an excuse—and that she’ll find out and distance herself. I’m just scared that my whole world is gonna fall apart, all around me.

After my psychiatrist appointments, I can't stop obsessing over whether or not I explained things correctly, or if I exaggerated without noticing? We spoke about the possibility of ADHD today, and after I got home, I kept wondering if I had exaggerated my experiences of struggling to focus, finishing tasks, feeling paralyzed when I want to get things done, etc... This is how I felt when I got diagnosed with anxiety and OCD, though. It's just sort of stressing me out 🫠 Has anyone dealt with similar?

I just got done with an appointment with my psychiatrist and I believe she said that I have ocd, anxiety, and depression but I keep telling myself that she didn’t say ocd. I feel like I held back on a lot of how I actually felt because I was scared she was going to say I was crazy or something so I kinda down played what goes on in my head. I’m over analyzing things I said in the meeting and thinking that I might have said things that aren’t true. I feel like she doesn’t know the severity of it so she doesn’t think I have ocd. I want to text and ask her to confirm or should I just wait until my next appointment.