Hey guys I need advice. I might be getting therapy soon but I don’t know if I have ocd. I have no anxiety, no intrusive thoughts lately (sometimes I do have them but the past few days I haven’t) and I don’t even know if I’m obsessing, more just obsessing over how I probably don’t have ocd and the dread that I could be what I feared of being for so long. I feel like I’m not even scared anymore because it feels like I’ve actually accepted it, and it just feels like all my worst fears came true, that I’m just the unlucky one where all my fears actually came true. I know that ERP is supposed to expose you to your triggers but I don’t think I have any triggers because I’m not scared anymore because I think it’s real!!!? So should I still do therapy because I just don’t know anymore I have no hope and I feel like no one is going through the same thing I am

Thankyou for replying everyone! It’s giving me a bit of hope going through this is really difficult and draining

I worried about something similar, for a time. What I learned is that worrying that you don't have ocd is a part of ocd. My fear and intrusive thoughts would suddenly vanish when I thought about getting help, then would come back slowly when I convinced myself everything was fine. Don't trust it. Get help, you won't regret it.

You better ask your therapist about this

I struggle with this and I'm in therapy. XD

I know this exact feeling word for word. You may not be able to understand your triggers but they are there! You will figure out the general theme of them and what your fears are associated around. (Why you think you’re a bad person.) if you’re putting so much thought into all of your fears it’s most likely OCD. Some days I feel like I never had OCD and I made it all up because I’m a terrible person. Then some days I’m like “Okay I definitely have OCD” it’s all apart of it. We aren’t terrible people we are just so afraid of being terrible people.