I feel like I’m the most emotionally empty person in the world right now

I’m doing ok but dang has this week been emotional! My mind is clouded by thoughts and I feel disconnected from my body sometimes because of them. My fiance, the love of my life, is off at a training so I cannot spend any time with him. I constantly feel I live in this state of sinning, and it’s especially been on my mind with Easter soon. I’m tired. I’m so tired of trying to be the perfect Christian, daughter, granddaughter, sister, cousin, fiance but then again, no one in my family deserves any less from me. My family is a blessing. I’m two weeks away from getting a degree. I am a few months away from marriage. Yet somehow I know less about life than I did at 18. Well anyway…rant over…I hate how “oh woe is me” this sounds but there’s not enough words in this finite language that I could string together to encapsulate how I really feel.

Nobody responded to my post I feel like the worst person ever I don’t want to eat or do nothing you have no idea how in pain I am right now I feel worse than a P or a r

I feel like I’ve lost who I am , even since my depression and ocd started. I don’t even know what I like anymore:(( I doubt everything I think and it’s so draining because I just want to feel like my old self again😭 I feel like I have no motivation to get better which is bothering me so much because I want too but something is holding me back from doing what I need to do :/ with all my thoughts and doubts , I feel like I can’t trust myself . I don’t know if I’m the only one that feels this much pain