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Your story made me quite sad actually. I identify as straight with hocd, but I can't imagine the confusion and sadness you must feel. My heart goes out to you hun! I hope your attraction returns soon :)

I understand, except I was a straight dude( I think) not even sure If I was straight before. My identity feels so blank

Oh man that is so hard. My rocd has also affected my attraction to my husband and it’s the literal worst. Hopefully as we can make peace with our minds it will come back..