I just tried to take a nap and the same intrusive thought came to my head and my mind was going to go to a dark place but I woke up with my heart racing. I just keep thinking how am I supposed to live like this forever? How am I going to live a quality life forever. I feel like I’m losing my mind every day. I don’t get enough sleep. Most sleep I get maybe 3 hours. I can’t really tell no one but I confess too much on here or I’ll complain or confess about a different problem I’m struggling with. I feel like I’m losing my mind. My memory isn’t the best right now and my days are all mixed up. I’m breaking down twice a day and I’m not sure if it’s because of my period making it worse but my whole life sucks :( I feel like this is it tbh.

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

Hey! My OCD is always MUCH worse around my period. That’s because it’s connected to your hormones. You are going to be okay, and you are not always going to feel like this. ❤️ Try repeating this to yourself: “I see you OCD. You don’t have a place at my table.” Then, smile like you’ve won something. (Smiling changes your body chemistry!) Next, try repeating your fears to yourself with a maybe - “maybe I will do this thing, maybe I did do this, etc.” Try to not react emotionally to this - stay calm. If you refuse to listen and respond the way OCD wants you too (fear, guilt, trying to fix of understand things), it‘ll stop talking. This always helps me calm down!

Anonymous:,(

Date posted: 4y

Thank you 💗

Maybe,MaybeNot

Date posted: 4y

Are you in therapy? On meds? Sounds like you must be doing a lot of ruminating.

Anonymous:,(

Date posted: 4y

Um I’m on meds. I haven’t started therapy yet. I’m struggling because I almost acted on a thought and I’m scared. I keep gettin a bunch of intrusive thoughts. I’m really afraid that I’m the future my mind will twist it into I did do it even though I know I didn’t. I’m just really struggling and I just want to go away to get better or just go away. It’s so hard I don’t see it getting any better. I’m on my second breakdown of the day and I feel so terrible for worrying so many people. When all I want to do is give up. It’s so hard

Maybe,MaybeNot

Date posted: 4y

@Anonymous:,( I understand. I experience this too. It’s very painful. And yes, your mind may convince you that you did something at some point, it’s called false memory OCD. But the more you ruminate on something the more your mind is going to think it’s real. You have to let the thoughts come and go with out giving them attention. I know how hard this is but we have to do it.

Anonymous:,(

Date posted: 4y

@Maybe,MaybeNot But I know it didn’t happen and it goes the what if’s and than after that I get the same intrusive thought repeating itself in my mind. And I don’t want and I feel like I’m going crazy. I just can’t no more

Maybe,MaybeNot

Date posted: 4y

@Anonymous:,( I know. I get the same way. It’s like we logically know what’s true but we still doubt ourselves. We can’t ruminate on it, that’s what makes it an obsession

Kathy♥️

Date posted: 4y

I'm going through the same thing right now. I'm on medication to help but it doesn't always help. Mine comes and goes and when I experience intrusive thoughts it makes me sick as in vomiting, shakes, Insomnia. I start my first therapy session next Tuesday and I pray that I learn coping skills to deal with this. 🙏

Anonymous:,(

Date posted: 4y

I’m on medication too it was working but now it’s not I’m still on a small dosage. I have mine monday but it’s just super hard. I just been crying so much. This only started for like a month and it’s hell. I hope your first session goes well!!

Kathy♥️

Date posted: 4y

I'm sorry 😞 I hope it gets better. Thank you!

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