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Ope
34d ago

If anyone is able to talk, please comment below. I’m really triggered and am supposed to go out with my husband.

Whyyocd
34d ago
Me too :)
Ope
33d ago
Hi everyone! Thanks for answering. I’m having a really hard time with my intimate relationship with my husband. The other stuff is kind of 18+ so I won’t go into it but it’s bothering me a lot
nochristina
33d ago
Hi there, i hope you're doing better now but I'm here if you want to talk.
Ope
33d ago
Thanks! It’s just all kind of a mess. I’m feeling really uneasy about my attraction to men and doubting if I actually love my husband. I’ve had this obsession for years but it never gets easier
nochristina
33d ago
@Ope Don't lose hope, you can't give up. You have the strength in you and you can push through this. It's going to be hard but we are all here for you. Ocd is so uncomfortable and tells you lies around things that you love the most. What are you doing tonight? Is there a way to focus on the present?
Ope
33d ago
@nochristina I’m going out with my husband and that’s freaking me out
nochristina
33d ago
@Ope Where are you going? Do you like to dress up, is it somewhere you have been wanting to go?
Ope
33d ago
@nochristina It’s a fancy restaurant and I’m excited but I’m scared I won’t feel a spark or won’t enjoy it
nochristina
33d ago
@Ope Hey there, how did it go?
Justmesadly
33d ago
Ope 😭 stop it, you have to get better friend!
Ope
33d ago
I feel like such an idiot, I really do. I hate being on here and hate how I’m still stuck and everyone else is moving on. I honestly think I’m so stuck because I’m just completely giving in. I’m hopeless that erp will work or make me better without me “discovering” something so I keep holding back. It’s so sad
Justmesadly
33d ago
@Ope First of all you’re not an idiot. But we don’t all heal (it’s not moving on it’s healing to continue living ) at the same pace and we all don’t have the same will power to be strong and keep pushing all the time! It’s hard as hell! Even me who had so much will power , I’ve been so bad this week! There’s no measurement of Success , only how well you’re doing. And I know you can do it. Erp may or may not work, but 80% is a good chance of it working and wouldn’t it be so much better if it turns out it does work for you
Ope
33d ago
@Justmesadly I just feel like when I got over this before, I wasn’t married so there was not that much pressure. Like I just came out of it and went along my way dating men. But now, it’s like I have to have absolute confirmation or I ruined my life and his. It’s the worst. Erp was working and I know it will work, I just use that pressure of the worst case scenario
Justmesadly
33d ago
@Ope I hear you! And I get it, I don’t blame you! Exactly so get back to erp
Justmesadly
33d ago
@Ope I have so much faith that you can do this
Ope
33d ago
@Justmesadly I just need to have faith that it’ll end with me happy with my husband
Justmesadly
33d ago
@Ope I have so much faith I you
Whyyocd
33d ago
I think you should get back to erp too 🥺 you’ve done it before and got better, so you can do it again!!! I definitely understand feeling like there is more pressure now but it’s better to try than stay where you’re at 🥺 we believe in you!!! 💖
OCDumb >:(
33d ago
I hope you ended up enjoying it and not freaking out! I’ve been at a band competition all day, but I would have replied earlier if I hadn’t been. Get better! We love you, and you don’t deserve this :(
Ope
33d ago
Thanks everyone! It went well, I was nervous but I’m doing okay now
Justmesadly
33d ago
Be glad you’re still anxious! I have rarely been anxious with these thoughts for months now