THATS IT. OCD will NOT latch onto what is important to me. IM DONEEEE

I’ve gone through so many themes and seen the pattern so many times that I’m getting to a point where, new themes come in and I automatically identify my compulsions and the potential ones and then choose to not engage. OCD now is like a thorn in my side rather than a boulder suffocating me. But still that annoying little thorn that will always be there dispositionally

I don’t see a path forward with this. I don’t even know why I’m writing this. I can’t stand the feeling of feeling guilty all day and having a headache all day. I’m probably too afraid to do anything, but I don’t know what to do

i’m so tired of everything i can’t take the ocd on top of school life no friends no love never will find good love. i can’t be out publicly i’ll never be in the right body i’ll never be happy and stable i just want to dissapear. I will never escape my ocd and my gender. i can’t do this my entire life.