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I deal with similar issues on a daily basis. At the end of the day, every relationship is a risk and you just kind of have to decide if that person is worth the potential risk of heartbreak. Also, love is much more of a choice than a feeling. Are you willing to choose that person when it’s hard? Are you willing to give up your dreams for the sake of that person? If so, they’re worth the risk and worth fighting OCD for. My boyfriend has been selflessly fighting my ROCD with me for about 3-4 months now, even though I’ve battled it for a couple of years. We have the freedom to choose, “the one” is not a real thing, and love is a choice of willing selflessness.
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I hope that helps. I know that doesn’t make it any easier, but you aren’t alone
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I dealt with all of those exact same feelings before I started the relationship I am in rn. I’d never had a boyfriend before. The day we officially started dating I had an anxiety attack later that night about it scared that I had made a wrong choice and what if I was wasting a kind person’s time because I had such a skeptical view of relationships. First of all, take your time, there’s no rush to decide. 2nd of all, if you look for tiny incompatibilities to fixate on, you will eventually find one because no one is perfect and so there is no perfect couple. And last, every relationship to an extent is a little bit of a leap of faith. Even if you took that leap and some day it ended (not saying that is the case) you will still have grown as a person, and made choices based on potential joy and not avoidance of fear. I was in this exact position a while back. It was extremely scary and I felt paralyzed to make any choice for fear of making the wrong one. But I took a chance and was fortunate to have found someone I could talk to my fears about. And I’m def still** working thru lots of things I know realize are ROCD and other mental health things but my partner and I will have our 2 year anniversary this summer ?
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Thank you guys for the advice. I don't understand my brain, on the one hand, I 've allwaays wanted to be in a relationship, I've always wanted my true love, but now, when I certainly have the opportunity to experience what a relationship has to offer, I am scared. In fact, I am petrified just at the thought of letting one person into my life. And then there're other thoughts like there could be a better choice for me, or maybe I should wait, or this will only complicate things etc. Recently I've been thinking about the phisical aspect of the guy, and while I don't think he is repulsive, some aspects of his can be improved. This makes me think that I am a superficial and bad person , but I just can't help but identify little details which do or do not support this potential relationship
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- 24w
Okay, just wanna start by saying that I don’t have ROCD. I have perfectionism OCD, and I get intrusive thoughts that no one will like me, I’ll lose all my friends, I’ll be alone for life, etc. if I don’t have things “just right.” I feel like every time I like someone, my OCD just gets worse cause if I don’t perform compulsions, I feel like I have no chance with him. Your handwriting wasn’t smooth? Guess your love life won’t be either. The volume of your phone was too low? Guess your chances with him are too. Failed to draw your graph perfectly symmetrical? Guess what else you’ll fail at. It’s honestly exhausting, and that it isn’t even it. I feel like I tend to fixate on my crushes also. I wanna be 100% sure they’re a good fit before making a move, and that’s really problematic cause there’s just no way to know. And even if I deem that they’re a good guy, I STILL won’t do anything cause I always expect the worst! What if the first impression that I make is so bad that he wants nothing to do with me? I put so much pressure on myself to get him to like me back that I’m terrified to make a move. I’m so focused on the prospect of a second convo that I don’t even want to have the first convo! Like rn, there’s this dude that caught my eye. He’s a senior in high school, while I’m a junior. I’m taking AP bio, and he’s taking AP chem—both are 1.5 periods, so I see him in the cafe and during the passing period (we leave the cafe halfway through the lunch period). I purposely plant myself next to him in the halls during the passing period but haven’t worked up the courage to talk to him. He’s single, I don’t have any classes with him this year, he’ll be at college next year, we follow each other on instagram, and my friends have told me that he’s nice (and keeps to himself), so there’s minimal risk in trying to talk to him. Thing is though, every time I think about introducing myself, I just imagine all the ways that it can go wrong. What if he hates me? What if my first impression is actually good and we become friends, but he doesn’t like me back? What if I tell him I like him over messages, and he screenshots my text and posts it on his instagram story? I don’t know what to do. I know that high school is kinda early and that I still have time to figure things out. I’m just worried that I still won’t have things figured out when I need to. Any advice or personal experience would be welcome and greatly appreciated!
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- 23w
Every time we go out together and it’s not just us it’s also our manager and her son and his (the guy I’m talking to) roommate. We went to church one time alone. But my thing is I keep overthinking “am I leading him on” I still don’t know what to feel just and I’ve never been in a relationship. When we see each other we hold hands and and hug but I don’t want to kiss just yet even though I get the feeling to because I want to take it very slow especially when. I’m constantly overthinking everything. We hang out and I’m having a good time and then I go home and overthink a lot. It’s worse when I’m overthinking when waking up. Has anyone else experienced this. Like we’re friends right now but does anyone think it’s to soon to be holding hands and hugging. We held hands the second time meeting because I’m aware I want to take things slow. When I see him I get happy. I keep seeking reassurance from my mom, sister and google (of course) and I keep seeing post that you shouldn’t lead someone on and you can’t force to like someone. I overthink and then I’m calm and the thoughts start again. I really don’t want to hurt this guy he is so sweet and caring
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So I know for a fact that I'm not ready for relationships. It's just not something I feel like I can do due to insecurities, self confidence, anxiety, and self esteem getting in the way of that. It's something that's always on my mind due to fomo and societal norms. I know I would like one but I haven't found any other reasons beyond the biological want. There's a woman that I really do like spending time with and I kept thinking of trying to chat with her more just as a friend to hang out and just get to know her more. Everytime I've seen her it's been a great time and we get along really well. We click on a lot of things and have big interests in common. I'd be lying if I said I didn't think of her as a romantic partner but I just know that's not something I can do. Is it disingenuous to try and be friends with her despite having this on my mind time and time again? This is the one thing I could never find myself getting over.
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