I have been doing really well until tonight. I have a terrible relationship with my little sister, ever since we were kids, she would hurt me physically and act out and would always find ways to make me feel horrible whether with words or physically. It hasn’t stopped and I’m 24 and she’s 23. When we were kids, I wanna say 6-7 years old, we were way too involved with stuff on the internet and I remember us doing sexual things and knowing we probably shouldn’t but we did anyway, we may have been to close or I don’t know what it was. It maybe happened 4 times and then never again and we carried on with our lives and never spoke of it. We fight a lot because she has put me in situations where I get beat up by her ex bf’s or she puts our home at risk because of the crowd she’s around. And so I sometimes can’t handle it and I go off and she says anything to hurt me. I’m very angry and distressed because I have tried to process this on my own in my life because I just never want to be close to her again after this, she tells my dad and then she says she’s over it and just wants to be my friend. But I want nothing to do with her. I feel horrible now and searching up on the internet if I am okay in the damn head because of what happened as kids. I know this is A LOT and maybe there is judgement on me and that’s okay, I feel grossed out myself which is why I dug it down into my memories but right now all I can think is if I told my bf or anyone close to me they’d think I’m disgusting and I sexually abused my sister when we were kids.