Is anyone awake right now? Just need support 😟😔

Could you help me with my post?

@Ihateocd83 Gladly, I can't find it though. Can you write here what's it about?

@BearN About having my picture taken and looking gay 😔

@Ihateocd83 Lets begin with identifying what is the fear behind that thought? Once we do that we can start relieving the anxiety that comes with it, so let me ask you, what is the negative thought behind that belief?

@BearN So I don't like having my picture taken because I think I might look gay or someone might sat it. Because 2 random people have said this before. And it's the thoughts and feelings I'm having about men in my head but I don't know if there true or not.

@Ihateocd83 The way I see it you're afraid of something that hasn't even happened yet. You're anxious. But ask yourself, why does it matter what random people say? People say all kinds of thing and if we let everything get to us well...we aren't really living aren't we, you are torturing your mind by giving value to something that doesn't deserve your attention. As for your thoughts. A mind is a beautiful thing. Thoughts come and go, they float freely. Allow yourself to let them come and go and just observe them. Don't ponder about whether they're true or not, that's not productive. Once you do this you will have a better understanding of who you are. Also, I am not a psychologist and as such I can be wrong. This is my advice

@BearN But that's not who I want to be I want to love women like I did and be blown away by them. The desire has gone. And it feels as tho I want to be with a man. There just in my head. But I'm unsure if it's actually me

@Ihateocd83 In which case I think it is best to visit a therapist. These conversation sessions can really help out. I cannot be of much help as I am not a professional.

@BearN I've had therapy 😔

@Ihateocd83 Maybe try a different therapist? Not every therapists is suitable for every individual

@BearN It's just so expensive and don't have the funds

How are you feeling now? Do you want to talk about it?

I had some dreams the past couple of nights that left me feeling stressed in the morning, but I wouldn't say I specifically had a panic attack from them though, but I definitely have had panic attacks after dreams/nightmares before. I'm saying all of this though so that maybe it can give you some peace to know that you're not alone in this. But I wasn't trying to steal the spotlight though... so I'm sorry if I did... I hope the rest of your day will go well and get better though leap123. :) we're here for you friend!

I do the same thing where I feel the need to talk things out out or ask for forgiveness from my wife or seek reassurance in some way. I'm not saying that you talking to your fiance about your dream was a compulsion necessarily, I just know that for me seeking forgiveness about things is a compulsion I have because I've been dealing with it for years now. I'm glad your fiance is supporting you through this. My wife is very supporting of me with my OCD too. :)

@Drew777 I didn't mean to say "out" twice.